~No More Tears Chapter~

Well, this is it. The dawn of one of my worst nightmares ::: the end of tomorrow where I'll have to say goodbye to the people I've known for the past 10 hours a day, 8 and 1/2 months. And him. Never to see him again, that's what's been killing me slowly since Monday. As the week draws nearer to its end, I find myself becoming increasingly withdrawn and unable to face him. This cannot be happening to me. This is another deja vu all over again. I know this is the part where the end starts, and yet, the full realization that I won't see him ever hasn't really hit me yet. Which might be good, seeing as how the full impact might be too much for me. I hate having to pretend. I hate the way things didn't turn out. I hate the fact that the phrase, "What hurts the most is having the one you love so close but knowing full well that you can't have him", hits home at the right spot. Wtf, I hate me for being weak. But no, I will keep on smiling even if it's only a pretense. For him.

PCD - I Hate This Part

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

~Wondering Aloud Chapter~

I have only just met you
Yet i feel so connected with you
Hoping one day to meet you
Knowing you are the girl
I believe i have been searching for
Your poetry has such imagery that i became jealous
Your beauty still baffles me
As to what or who i should thank
For putting you on this earth
I was lucky enough to even find such a diamond
Alas the diamond is still yet out of reach
I write this poem for you
Hoping to get your attention

Really sweet this, I've never gotten a poem before :)) It's a new poem I received some time back from a friend I met online (funny how wide a person's opportunities are in the virtual world). But ahah! Here's the catch: it's only an online friend. Full-stop, period, there's nada else going on, so quit sniggering already. My heart already belongs to someone else (though I don't know for vice-versa). I'm seriously annoyed with the way my Moral class is going and how it's arranged (like today for example, the day's lecture was totally re-scheduled and scrambled to god-only-knows-what arrangement. Instead of going into the lecture hall based on groups agreed the day before, it was now based on which class you happened to be in. Unfortunately mine was the 6th class and the lecture would only be at 2.30pm. Like total wtfck man. I'm forced out of bed at an unearthly hour for what I thought would be a morning lecture only to be told this very morning itself that nope, the lecture for my class would only be 6 and 1/2 hours later. I find out later at night that another incredible mix-up occurred. The 2.30pm slot wasn't even for my group's topic. Turns out it's the 10am slot that's correct. Total wtfck all over again).

And if that doesn't complicate things further, I managed to somehow send a most condescending sms to the wrong person. Here's how that stupidity hapened: I type smses very fast. Most often without looking at the screen and I put in whatever I like that comes into mind at that moment. And it so happened I was feeling supremely annoyed at this one person and put it all into easy-to-understand-English-words. And then, the mother-of-all-shit-happens happened. I sent it to that very person I was annoyed at. Call it a slip of the fingers, a really messed up brain or just plain stoopedity, but yeah, that's what I did. Later on, the person didn't say anything (good of you!!) but the awkwardness and tension was too thick in the air to ignore. Damn. But whatever, this isn't the first time and I think I can safely say it ain't the last. Shit happens, people.

I'm going to hate saying goodbye next Monday to the people I've gotten to know since the past eight months I was "imprisoned" in SAM. I never was good at all this kind of stuff. I'll probably bawl my eyes out and end up stuttering and stammering over the words I want to say till everything comes out all wrong and mixed-up. Especially since I know I won't be able to see that someone ever again, what with different university and social paths. It's that one little thing that's keeping me coming to college everyday (eventhough I absolutely hate early mornings), staying as long as I can stand the "Moral Torture" and dreading the final end of the only way I see that someone. Weak? Yes, and proud of it. It only means I'm human. *Pfffft*

~Verily Adorable Chapter~

10 Promises To My Dog

I managed to get out of the house for a much needed break over at One Utama with my little "anak moyang" on Wednesday. T'was before the huge, much-awaited corroboree event that was to begin that night and I figured a small outing with a bestie would be perfect to loosen me up abit. Decided to catch this seriously awesome movie, "10 Promises To My Dog" over at Cinema5. It really wasn't what I expected. We knew the movie was directed by the same person who directed "Quill" as well, but honestly man, that movie really rocks socks [although I have yet to watch "Quill", I just fell for the little puppy on the ad for "10 Promises" x3]!! Suffice to say I find the movie is a hit and Celineey and I cried to end. Heck, the whole of row A where we were seated had girls that were sobbing tak henti-henti. And yes, I'm not ashamed to admit I cried waterfalls of tears till my jacket got wet. Pffft ;))

Go watch the movie. Now. No excuses. Shoo. And since I'm bored stiff [no thanks to "someone" who promised to go kai-kai with me but ended up ffk-ing me instead *bleh*], I shall now post pictures of some friggingly seriously adorable animals I wish I could have, but in no particular order :::

wallaby (nope not a kangaroo)

ferret(=3)fennec fox(i love the ears)serval cat(mini cheetah with big ears)baby penguin(schleepy cute)white tiger(squeezably so)baby seal(seriously huggable)

red squirrel(love the tail) baby polar bear(oO.Oo) dolphins(too slippery to be cuddly but wth) finally,a falcon(not an animal,i know,but who cares)

~Unbelievably Amazing Chapter~

Here it is, the majorrrrr event that is the SAM Corroboree of 2008 (corroboree also known as prom to the uninitiated), our "last night" as college students before moving on to the big bad cruel cold world of adultdom *badabadaladeeBOOM* Righto, only one word, in my opinion, is sufficient enough to sum the night's events up :::

BLAST!!!

Yeap, I had the time of my life. Well, okay I have to admit it was blah-dee-boring in the beginning but things kinda picked up round midway thru the whole event, with the Arabian dancers [they sure knew how to move those booties and get the hormone-raging boys crowd all worked up *hoot*] and the Salsa dancers [Mellie the Schmellie and his "partner" (read:special one *winkwink*) were one of the couples; never knew the kid could dance :))] and the whole guitar-strumming and singing sessions. Made a major mistake I promised over a hundred times not to --> arriving an hour and a half late. Partly thanks to the stooped traffic jam that started from my front gate [no, I'm kidding, whaddya think] all the way to the Sunway Lagoon Resort Hotel's front entrance [this one I'm not kidding ==].

Fumbled my way to my seat in the darkened ballroom in time for the first performance to begin. Till now, for the life of me, I can't seem to remember much of those performances, but I DO remember lots of photos being taken throughout the whole night!Omg lots of camwhoring opportunities were around and about! *cheers* Foodwise, it was considered an a-ok with the typical 8-course Chinese dinner, complete with what-I-think-is-shark's-fin-soup. Felt guilty eating those "poor, helpless, almost extinct creatures" but didn't think much of it that time. Heh. Dessert was the weirdest concoction I've ever laid eyes on [it looked like huge cotton balls floating in a thick orange paint, no kidding], and everyone seated at table number 41 [yay to my table!!] were staring hard as the waiter ladled it out into little bowls. It turned out pretty tasty and I didn't have "such severe food poisoning I couldn't feel my butt later on" as my crazy lost darling brother puts it so delicately *bleh to you too kor*

The bestest, most memorable part of the night would have to be when Jagjit pointed out that the little blue piece of paper I came close to throwing away was in fact, a very important part of completing the whole night. It was, yesyes, a ticket allowing anyone who attended the event free entrance to Euphoria [eeep!], which was right next door to where our corroboree was held. Now that was the real highlight of the night since I had never been there before, and judging by the amount of good reviews I heard about that place, it's one of the best places to go~ Nadirah and I popped over first as we had to leave early later on [wtfh la I know] to check it out. I managed to happily confirm that it lived up to my expectations [*^^*] At first, not many people were there but then more and more started coming in and onto the dance floor till it was packed. No pictures though, the place was too dark for 'em. The one event that stands out was when a certain "someone" with quite abit of drink in him tried to take to the dance floor as well. Suffice to say, it wasn't as expected [=Þ]. Anyway, pictures time! :::

~Tranquil Silence Chapter~

Sometimes in the stillness of dawn
When all seems well and all things possible
I lie in bed with half-closed eyes
.....waiting for your call
As the skies slowly brighten and the silence goes on
I smile and think you must still be asleep
But all too soon a heaviness descends as my mind reminds me
.....you are here no more
But then my heart lightens as it feels otherwise
For the eyes of my heart see your delicate love
For the ears of my heart still hear your laughter
The voice of my heart speaks softly to you
For you are in the embrace of my heart
In my heart you will always reside
In the very depths of me I know you are here
for you never left.....

I got this somewhere from a magazine or a newspaper (memory out of touch a wee bit); it's one of those last dedications you give to a loved one who''s finally moved on, to a better or a worse place, no one can say really. Heck, I've been thinking alot lately about what happens when it's time for you to "go". Mostly questions that are similar to the ones everyone is bound to ask sooner or later :::

a) Does it really hurt when you die?
b) Do you really see a bright light when it's time to go?
c) Can I really hear the angels singing up "there"?
d) When will you join me again?
e) Will I ever see those I love again?
f) What happens to us after we've "moved on"?
g) If there really is a God, why is this happening to me?
h) Why do some people die long before they're old and wrinkly?
i) How come good peopledie but bad people don't seem to?
j) If I went high enough, would I find heaven soon?

Funny how true these small and seemingly innocent questions ring in our hearts and minds. I've had to hear of so many deaths in my short span of almost 19 years, some happening to people I know and others happening to people I'm connected to in one way or another. It makes one wonder, exactly when is it "our turn"? It could probably be today, tomorrow or the very next second. Cliche as this next sentence may sound, please don't tell anyone to ever shutup 'cause that person may be silenced forever and then *padan muka kau!!* Hahahahaha ouch that was meeean. Oh and, telling someone you love them? Hell, that ain't no soppiness, that's showing you care and showing you're human.

When I am gone, release me, let me go
I have so many things to see and do
You musn't tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that we had so many years
I gave you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave to me in happiness
I thank you for the love you have shown
But now it's time I travelled on alone
So grieve awhile for me if grieve you must
Then let your grieve be comforted by trust
It's only for awhile that we must part
So bless our memories with your heart
I won't be far away for life goes on
So if you need me, call and I will come
Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near
And if you listen with your heart, you'll hear
All of my love around you soft and clear
And then, when you must come this way alone
I'll greet you with a smile and welcome you home

Lotsa love from me to the people reading this!! =]

~Scandalous Fun Chapter~

Yeah I know I'm supposed to be revising for my final paper [how is one NOT to know when I have my darling mother breathing down my neck 24/7? Really now ;))] *bleeurgh* for next Tuesday's Accounts paper, but how on earth am I supposed to when I have all sorts of delectable temptations thrown head-on at me? For example, my "anak moyang" Celineey just helped me realize how much I'm missing out on all the latest goss going on out there in the big, bad world. Gahhh unbearable with a capital 'U'. Anywhoo, since I came across this "funny" entry in a certain person's blog, I feel like it's my "calling" to jump headlong into the bandwagon and give my comments as well. Wasn't asked for, but I'm in the whole weirdly mood so whatever yeah :]

Right, just a few moments ago, I read in this blog that there's a new kid on the online scene in China who's the hottest thing right now. This girl-who-needs-a-serious-head-check, she's a 28-year-old peasant girl from the Shaanxi province and apparently she became really uber famous after posting up "a few" pictures of herself in various "sexay" poses that she thought would make all the guys be turned on. As it is, this is an advertisement of sorts featuring herself :::


Yup, she's THAT delusional man. This whole thing would have been the most ridiculously hilariously absurd thing I've ever read/heard/seen/whateveritmaybe if it wasn't so.....uhm.....stooped is the only word that's managed to pop in right now, dizzy as I am. When I think of a less polite word, I'll get back to you on that, no sweat. This "sister" also has the very guts to do this, that and *ugggh* :::


Pray do tell me, do those pictures give even the slightest hint of someone who is under 45 kilogrammes (or even 80 for that mater?), has the shocking ability to turn people's heads and is able to instantly become the focus of anyone and everyone within a 100-mile radius?

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Nope, I didn't think so too. Apparently, the only way this kid ever got so famous is because this whole lame oddball attempt fascinates people in the craziest way possible. The very same way people get so fascinated by Michael Jackson's life and his horribly failed nose job (is it me, or has it sunk??) or even by a seriously disgusting car accident with mangled messes of human flesh and blood just oozing out. Mashed brains anyone? But I digress. Since this Furong person asked the blogger to hang this picture over his bed so he can view her "loveliness" every waking moment and dream have nightmares to no end :::



I'm guessing by this picture down below (which he's so carefully lovingly edited all by himself), he'd rather have this one a million times over :::


Ahhh~ I rest my case. I'm off, over and out :))