~Another Goodbye Chapter~

You can shed tears that he is gone

Or you can smile because he has lived

You can close your eyes and pray that he will come back

Or you can open your eyes and see all he has left

Your heart can be empty because you can't see him

Or you can be full of love you shared

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday

Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday

You can remember him only because he is gone

Or you can cherish his memory and let it live on

You can cry and close your mind

Be empty and turn your back

Or you can do what he would want

Smile, open your eyes, love and go on

This is my goodbye to you, Ah Pek. Goodbyes are always so hard to say, they drain so much emotionally and mentally. I would like to thank you for being the wonderfully caring man you were towards my family. Another beloved life, your candle snuffed out ever so quietly but without pain. I'm glad you got back home before you finally left this world. Wherever you are now, wherever you may go, I do hope your soul rests in peace for all eternity. God Bless.

~The Finally Chapter~

I finally was able to get my first ever pet after 19++ whole years of waiting and pryaing and hoping. Actually, it's more of pets, since what I got were two adorably FAT hamsters. And for free, too *rubs hands in glee* Even my mom, who's not exactly what you would call an animal hater but you can call a seriously maddeningly strict human, fell in love with the two roundies after only a few hours. Awesome I say ((: I named these two furry round puffballs Snorlex and Schmoley. Hahaha don't ask why, all I'll say is that those names are in honour of "friends" ((:

~Here's To You Chapter~

I'm awfully exquisitely pleased with myself ((:

I freed myself from the "dark" clutches and made meself a brand new friend.

Hello to you, new friend!

You know who you are, I hope, haha.

If you don't, well, just know I'm glad I know you now.

So cheers to a new friendship, and fine times ahead!!

" I'll lean on you and you lean on me

and we'll be all okay "

~It's That Week Chapter~

This week has been one helluva eventful merry-go-round (to those who disagree with my viewpoint, here’s my advice to you ::: stfu and go boil your head or go fly kite or whatever it takes to get you away. Period) and here is where I talk about it.

Happening #1
I find out that HH isn’t who he claimed to be, neither does he do what he claims to have been doing for the year or so that I’ve known him (what, you think I’m gonna use real names here?? *pfffft*). He says he's a student, with assignments and homework and stuff like I have. Then, I forgot what I said again, he mentions he doesn't like to lie and absolutely avoids it like the plague if possible. He then goes to say that he has lied once though, and that's about his real identity; I would only get the whole truth once he's trusted me enough. I suddenly remembered a few vague, sketchy details some people had told me and I mentioned them to him, off-handedly of course. I managed to surprise him into telling all, I know now what it is you do haha *huggles* does that mean I'm fully trustable now? Thanks awfully for the honour, HH, you know you're the best; and boy, am I glad I got to know you ((:

Man behind the mask is finally unveiled

Happening #2
HS is an awesomely uberrrr fun guy, full of crazy nonsense and weird jokes, but all in all, mega good to have around! Unfortunately, I get to know just this week of something that he's been up to since, well, 25 years ago. No, I ain't kidding you nor is this a typo. 25years ago. A girl can't have older friends now, eh? *pfffft* Anywhichways, to HS ::: you say noone lasts forever right? I say they do. If a person lives on in people's hearts and is remembered with love, it would mean that he or she would last forever ((: You know half of United already missed you like crazy when you left for awhile, can you imagine the pain you'll be inflicting on us when you "leave"?? )): It isn't easy you know, hearing about someone you care about "leaving" all too soon, wayyy too soon. You say there's another side to you, but then there's also that really good side. You can always work to get the better side out? You know know know we all love you, so why put yourself through all that much of personal torture? I'm sure I speak for at least half of United when I say we'll awfully hate to say goodbye, goodbye seems to be the hardest word to say. Please don't inflict such madness on yourself, you're gonna hurt all of us badly too.

We mourn with those who mourn

Happening #3
I make a new friend, Wei Li, and she turns out to be a really really good friend. She can be highly random too, laughing at nothing and making sudden comments that can prove to be wacky. That only makes her funnier to be around with, honestly ((: Anyway, what makes this the 3rd eventful happening all begins with her and a teeny tiny adorable little hamster. She brings a box into BCB class on Thursday and me, being a nosy little brat, wants to see what's inside the mysterious box. Wei Li pops open the lid and Voila! a silver and white hamster pokes his little pink nose out at me as if saying, "What's up?" ((: Darn squishable I tell you! She says she wants to give it up as it's kinda fierce to its own type, I suddenly pipe up and say, "I WANTTT!!" and wtf. There and then, he's mine, lol. That hamster soon became a star attraction, every single girl who heard about him being present in Uni immediately made a beeline for him. If I were a guy, I'd be totally over the moon at sharing the spotlight. Thing is, Imma girl okayyy and all that unwanted attention just got on my nerves, seriously. I mean, haven't you seen a bloody hamster before, for God's sake?? Gi Google dah bleh dapat nengok dah ishhh. I so feared for the poor little thing, passed around like he was some kind of a circus freak and oogled over and over; think his blood pressure went up a few notches during that harrowing time *blehhh* The pics are enough to show how extremely lovably squishy he is, and how much of a mini celebrity he turned out to be. We had so much fun during that Microeconomics lecture; I swear I never had that much fun before ((: However, disaster struck early in the form of my darling Snorlex (hamster's name, don't ask, he has a weird story behind that name) nibbling a hole through the box holding him that my friend was keeping him in and escaped to his freedom. My poor heart shattered when my friend told me the news, I figured it was the end of my dreams of having a pet for the first time in my 19years of life (Mom are you reading this??!!). And then, and then........Wei Li finds a replacement for me! A teeny tiny hammy with the same colour and markings as the original Snorlex! I wuv you, Wei Liiiiii! Ajajajajaja ^^

~When I Dream Chapter~

I've had complaints filed to my "department" about how stale and abandoned my blog seems to have become. It must be reflecting the life I have right now. Ha. Ha. Ha.

Anyhows, it's only the second week back at Uni and already I'm struggling to stay awake in lectures and falling asleep whenever possible in tutorials. I'm starting to look like a bloody panda *pffft* I am so darned drained of energy most days, don't know why I can't seem to fall asleep at night. I toss, I turn this way and that, I try counting cows for the umpteenth time..........and all to no avail. I just can't seem to get some proper shut-eye. When I do finally manage to fall asleep, I don't have sweet dreams, or pleasant thoughts.


No. I have nightmares. And most of them are about death.





I see people I know, people I love most, dying. I scare myself awake most times, the shock of these nightmares not fully gone even by the time I wake up. Sometimes I see me die too. My death comes in so many forms, so many ways for me to leave behind this Life. I used to wonder whether my dreams were merely nightmares or a sinister warning for me to heed. Then it happens so often I go, "Ahhh whatever, I think too much".


On a lighter note, we Uni students already have our assignments out and ready for us to tackle. What? It is a lighter topic ain't it, compared to one of Death and Despair, si? Although, I see myself singing a different tune when it comes closer to the assignments' deadlines. I might not be the only one either, wanting to "omgg diediedie" because of our workload. Lol.

~To Begin Anew Chapter~

I leave my wonderfully accepting perfect world to enter this bleak harsh reality.

I'm missing all the new friends I made already.

Only the first week of uni and I'm starting to feel the nervousness that inevitably comes with assignments.

Desperate times call for desperate means, right? I can justify what I did then.

Will all of you still be there when I return? I hope so.

" Loss is nothing else but change

And change is Nature's delight "