~To Run Chapter~

I am just about up to here with being so worried about my little injured hamster, poor mite is practically going crazy at being cooped up in a tiny little plastic carrier, not a fit place for a furball full of energy (yes, he's gained his energy back after the bloody scare). I'm feeling awfully guilty too.

Add to that the winning formula of my panic for my end-semester exams worry about not being able to finish studying on time and you have a wonderfully potent concoction of a bundle of nerves that is ME, yours truly.

I think I need to let go of myself a little, get a little more used to being me, get a little more away from it all.

" Louder louder

And we'll run for our lives

I can hardly speak I understand

Why you can't raise your voice to say "

~Just Another Hurdle Chapter~

It's been awhile since I last posted anything. This week hasn't been such a great one after all, no matter me behaving otherwise or showing a happily-nonchalant face.

I have both my parents "attacking" me left right centre back and front and I have had barely enough time to gasp in between the stings. But, no matter, I'm still standing tall.

I have friends taking pokes and making jibes at my expense with me always feeling uncomfortably awkward but unable to retaliate for reasons best left unknown. The one good thing is it helps me laugh at myself, no matter how painful it gets. And no, of course it isn't a pleasant feeling, who would like to disagree? You guys having fun, yeah? Oh, you are? Awesome, you see, I'm not ((: But, no matter. I'm still smiling, albeit a little falsely, thanks.

I have my two "formerly darling" little rascals that other people would dub "hamsters" biting and mauling one another yesterday night till one is bleeding badly, and no, I'm not allowed to bring the liddle injured mouse to the vet because it's "cheaper to buy a brand new injury-free one". Soooooo.........if I fell deadly ill, it'll be so much more cheaper to buy a new daughter than to send me to a hospital right? But, no matter, I'm still alive and kicking (oh boohoo to them; no prizes for guessing who).

I have to withstand another crushed hope in the process as well (why do I always do this to me and why does it always have to happen at the most inopportune moments?). Think I move on fast? Self-protection, my dear, an essential survival tool. But, no matter, I'm still strong, I have to be.

All this I endure in the span of one short week. Still standing, still smiling, still alive and still strong. For how long do I keep up this facade? Till I reach the safety of my room of course.

" Just cause I can't go on
Just cause I die when you're gone
And just cause I think of you in bed
Don't let it go to your head "

~It Ain't Dark Chapter~

Absolutely crazy-mad.

Seriously.

But I love it, love it, love it anyway!!

Hahaha I'm talking about the two people who dropped by my house around 8pm plus last night.

They gave an excuse of needing to pass me a thumbdrive.

It turns out they had tapau-ed satay from Kajang for me and drove all the way through a heavy traffic jam to my place in TTDI in order to pass the bundle to me ((:

Hugs and lotsa cuddles.

Where else on earth can you easily find people who care about you in the smallest, simplest ways possible but with gestures that touch your heart in all their sincerity?

Almost nil chances there, trust me, I've been there and back again.

I find me so pitiful for not being friends with you guys and your gang in the very first semester, who knows the amount of insane fun there might have been that I missed out on?

Thanks for showing me the world isn't so dark after all ((:

"And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you "

~We Are Crazy Chapter~

I was meaning to blog about all the insanely crazy stuff I ended up doing with a bunch of equally crazy friends on Saturday when we were supposed to be seriously doing our assignment...........



Somehow I ended up forgetting almost all things crazy that day.



Anywhichways, I have one small comfort. If I really were to blog about it, it might just end up looking nonsensical when put in words and many may not get why I find it funneh. It also means there's just too many to remember. I do want to take the risk and post this picture up though, it's one thing someone did for fun, and to make it "less riskier" for me, I covered the owner's face. Please do take note of the male sign and the female standing near it ((: Cheers!!

~A Happy Meal Chapter~

As I sit here in Subang Jaya's McDonald with good friends and blogging about how happy I feel (but to Shu Yi, thank you for being the "bitter" darling that you are, you are the spice of life that makes the world revolve around in an even more "exciting" way ahahaha), I wonder how it is I managed to go through my first semester without the wonderful people that entered my life in the most unexpected way possible.

See see my food!! I know everyone's seen this like a gajillion-bamallion times, hahaha, but it's made all the more tastier 'cause I'm surrounded by people I care about ((:


I'm also seemingly embroiled in so many of people's problems. Somehow, I find myself the peacekeeper, the listener, the advisor, the carer, the good friend, the problem-solver, the etc etc etc. But..........what about me? Who's going to help me? Who'll be listening to my sorrows? Who can I go to? Who'll be there for me?