~To Be Free Chapter~

WILD HORSES
I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out, hmmm
Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
There's greener pastures I'm thinking about
Mmm, wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared

Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare-back, carefree
Along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head-first, head-long
Without a thought
To act and damn the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear, but not feel scared

Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

I wanna run too

Recklessly abandoning me myself before you
I wanna open up my heart, tell him how I feel

Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like I'm longing too
I wanna run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses!
I wanna run with the wild horses

Song's by Natasha Bedingfield and omfg she's amazing in the sense that she's managed to put exactly how I've been feeling these past few weeks into just a song *cue shocked look* If only, if somehow, I managed to find that hidden strength, the courage to break free and tell him, straight to the face, how much I love him. No holds barred, no more hiding behind a smiling mask, no more insecurities. This might just happen when the moon turns green and the cow's able to jump over it without any help whatsoever like man-made wings and overdoses of enhancing drugs. Pffft.

I know just how weak I really am on the inside, all talk and no action. So I shall just wait (again, yes, shutup already) to see how it's going to end and in the meantime, pay as much attention as is possible into my next week's mind-numbing lectures. I mean, if 3hrs straight of one subject alone don't kill you, then the sitting still most certainly will wipe out most of your remaining brain cells. No kidding. So toodles for now while I go pound my brain cells into a hardier form for Monday where my classes begin at 8am and end at 7pm. Shyte.

~I'm Back Chapter~

As the title so helpfully says, I'm back to this blogging business again although at the moment I'm feeling horribly lethargic and the lazy bones in my brain are complaining against the sudden overuse. I've hopped into the studies arena as well, this time into university, and it's a brand new phase in my life which I can't afford to screw up in any way. I have to be brutally honest here, I ain't very much happy at all to be dragged out of my comfort zone and away from my online family. To Jos, Esh and my darling little Ary, if you read this, know that I love all three of you so much and am missing you guys pretty badly now :((


Since I've forgotten how to get into the groove of blogging, these are some random thoughts running through my mind right now to fill the empty space:

[**] I badly need a drink of sky juice
[**] I'm worried about how I'll survive in uni
[**] I need to stop scarfing down enough chocolate bars to feed three colonies of ants
[**] I have to quit biting my nails whenever I feel nervous
[**] I miss Jos, Esh, Ary, Tazz and Hole so much
[**] I'm hankering for some good ol' fattening cheezy tacos
[**] I want to go to Colorado.....now
[**] I really have to stop singing in the shower, the neighbours complain too much
[**] I love him so so so so so so so so.....right that's annoying.....much but he doesn't know
[**] I'm still trying to lose my mind as quietly as possible
[**] I need a new family.....any takers? (lmao it's a joke)
[**] I miss the "Supernatural" series they used to air on TV
[**] I miss drooling all over my pillow at the sight of Jensen Ackles
[**] I want to be able to travel overseas again
[**] I want a new shadowdancer for my werefox
[**] I want a new guitar, no sharing *bleh*
[**] I want him, period