The Many Chapters In Liyun's Life

~New Beginnings Chapter~

2010-11-05T21:17:00.016+08:00

After nearly a whole year of abandoning this blog

I make my comeback with a post on a darling friend

I'm going to try my best to do you justice!

You know who you are, my half-sister hehe o^^o

Thank you lots in trying your best to get the "emo" out of me

Thank you lots in always knowing when I need to talk

Thank you lots in somehow knowing what to say all the time

Thank you lots in helping me all the time in no matter what

Thank you for being oh-so-sweet in all situations!

Thank you for being one heck of an awesome sister

Thank you for not quitting on me whatever I did or said

Thank you for showing me what true living is all about

Loads of thanks for trusting me with your tales and secrets

And finally, thank you for JUST BEING YOU!

You're the best and you should know it, I wouldn't be far in life without you, kiddo ♥

"Do you remember the nights

We'd stay up just laughing

Hoping of being someone big

We were so young then"

~The End For Now Chapter~

2009-11-09T19:54:00.005+08:00

I got these yesterday.
It's part of someone's culinary assignment.
They look like normal cupcakes don't they?
They turn out to be these really creamy cheesy tiny tartlets ((:
Amazinglyyyy good!!
Keep up the good work and thanks lots for letting me be part of the "taste team" haha.
As it is, I get a boost to my mood.
Time for me to re-enter the battlefield.
And keep on study, study, studying for those dratted finals.
Wish me luck!
As everyone finishes on the 23rd and I end on the 26th, my mood isn't all that upbeat.
Anywhichways, will be back on the 26th ((:

~Edwin's Birthday Chapter~

2009-11-06T21:19:00.007+08:00

Todayyyyy was Edwin the Penguin's birthday ((: No, fine, I'm sorry hahaha, it was Edwin the human's birthday and in true comradeship-style, we headed off once again to EAT. We bond well over food of all kind *grins maniacally*

Anyways, this time it was bonding over high-end food over in TGI Friday's branch in Subang Parade. 6 of us went for this mini thingy, Shu Yi, the birthday boy himself, Nai Loong, me and 2 other friends of Edwin's (one of whom looks remarkably like a thinner version of Raymond Lau lolol).

Then, Edwin had the "time of his life" (it depends on whose perspective you're viewing it from, ours or his hehe) being bullied by the staff of the restaurant as they made him get up on a chair in full view of the whole restaurant and SING. Zomg that was plain weird, I remember asking Shu Yi whether this was even part of the plan while watching Edwin struggle to even mumble a few words xD Poor kid~~

Imma let the pictures do the talking now.

Please take note of the picture where a knife is sticking out of the remains of the chicken ((: That one shows just how full and frustrated Edwin's friend was after tackling the appetizers AND the main course ahahaha!! To Edwin, a halal cheers once again for your birthday today and may you have many happy returns of the day!!

~The Great Fire Chapter~

2009-11-02T21:37:00.003+08:00

there was

a FYRE, whooosh

over at the tbs building

in subang jaya

and i was

running with friends

so many were coughing

and some were panicked

then there were

those

that were just plain

bimbotically stupid for using the lifts

oh well

hate me for not getting pix

of people, yes

looking up at the open windows

for signs

of smoke pouring out

or of them

gawking at the fire engine and firemen

at the very least

we had marvellous fun on a monday morning

♥ ((: ♥

~To Run Chapter~

2009-10-30T09:08:00.005+08:00

I am just about up to here with being so worried about my little injured hamster, poor mite is practically going crazy at being cooped up in a tiny little plastic carrier, not a fit place for a furball full of energy (yes, he's gained his energy back after the bloody scare). I'm feeling awfully guilty too.

Add to that the winning formula of my panic for my end-semester exams worry about not being able to finish studying on time and you have a wonderfully potent concoction of a bundle of nerves that is ME, yours truly.

I think I need to let go of myself a little, get a little more used to being me, get a little more away from it all.

" Louder louder

And we'll run for our lives

I can hardly speak I understand

Why you can't raise your voice to say "

~Just Another Hurdle Chapter~

2009-10-29T21:25:00.010+08:00

It's been awhile since I last posted anything. This week hasn't been such a great one after all, no matter me behaving otherwise or showing a happily-nonchalant face.

I have both my parents "attacking" me left right centre back and front and I have had barely enough time to gasp in between the stings. But, no matter, I'm still standing tall.

I have friends taking pokes and making jibes at my expense with me always feeling uncomfortably awkward but unable to retaliate for reasons best left unknown. The one good thing is it helps me laugh at myself, no matter how painful it gets. And no, of course it isn't a pleasant feeling, who would like to disagree? You guys having fun, yeah? Oh, you are? Awesome, you see, I'm not ((: But, no matter. I'm still smiling, albeit a little falsely, thanks.

I have my two "formerly darling" little rascals that other people would dub "hamsters" biting and mauling one another yesterday night till one is bleeding badly, and no, I'm not allowed to bring the liddle injured mouse to the vet because it's "cheaper to buy a brand new injury-free one". Soooooo.........if I fell deadly ill, it'll be so much more cheaper to buy a new daughter than to send me to a hospital right? But, no matter, I'm still alive and kicking (oh boohoo to them; no prizes for guessing who).

I have to withstand another crushed hope in the process as well (why do I always do this to me and why does it always have to happen at the most inopportune moments?). Think I move on fast? Self-protection, my dear, an essential survival tool. But, no matter, I'm still strong, I have to be.

All this I endure in the span of one short week. Still standing, still smiling, still alive and still strong. For how long do I keep up this facade? Till I reach the safety of my room of course.

" Just cause I can't go on
Just cause I die when you're gone
And just cause I think of you in bed
Don't let it go to your head "

~It Ain't Dark Chapter~

2009-10-10T22:45:00.005+08:00

Absolutely crazy-mad.

Seriously.

But I love it, love it, love it anyway!!

Hahaha I'm talking about the two people who dropped by my house around 8pm plus last night.

They gave an excuse of needing to pass me a thumbdrive.

It turns out they had tapau-ed satay from Kajang for me and drove all the way through a heavy traffic jam to my place in TTDI in order to pass the bundle to me ((:

Hugs and lotsa cuddles.

Where else on earth can you easily find people who care about you in the smallest, simplest ways possible but with gestures that touch your heart in all their sincerity?

Almost nil chances there, trust me, I've been there and back again.

I find me so pitiful for not being friends with you guys and your gang in the very first semester, who knows the amount of insane fun there might have been that I missed out on?

Thanks for showing me the world isn't so dark after all ((:

"And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you "

~We Are Crazy Chapter~

2009-10-06T10:44:00.006+08:00

I was meaning to blog about all the insanely crazy stuff I ended up doing with a bunch of equally crazy friends on Saturday when we were supposed to be seriously doing our assignment...........

Somehow I ended up forgetting almost all things crazy that day.

Anywhichways, I have one small comfort. If I really were to blog about it, it might just end up looking nonsensical when put in words and many may not get why I find it funneh. It also means there's just too many to remember. I do want to take the risk and post this picture up though, it's one thing someone did for fun, and to make it "less riskier" for me, I covered the owner's face. Please do take note of the male sign and the female standing near it ((: Cheers!!

~A Happy Meal Chapter~

2009-10-03T16:31:00.007+08:00

As I sit here in Subang Jaya's McDonald with good friends and blogging about how happy I feel (but to Shu Yi, thank you for being the "bitter" darling that you are, you are the spice of life that makes the world revolve around in an even more "exciting" way ahahaha), I wonder how it is I managed to go through my first semester without the wonderful people that entered my life in the most unexpected way possible.

See see my food!! I know everyone's seen this like a gajillion-bamallion times, hahaha, but it's made all the more tastier 'cause I'm surrounded by people I care about ((:

I'm also seemingly embroiled in so many of people's problems. Somehow, I find myself the peacekeeper, the listener, the advisor, the carer, the good friend, the problem-solver, the etc etc etc. But..........what about me? Who's going to help me? Who'll be listening to my sorrows? Who can I go to? Who'll be there for me?

~Time Is An Enemy Chapter~

2009-09-27T18:04:00.004+08:00

I can't believe my one week of hols are alrady over *sob* It seems just as though I was getting ready to saviour that one week itself but whaddya know, a blink and damn it's passed me by. Why? Why me? I need more time for ME!!

I need a time-out. So many people are coming to me nowadays with their stories and troubles and grouses and what-nots. It's a wonder I don't go mad altogether. Thank God I never got round to becoming a psychologist, that would definitely turn me into a certified psycho. Quoting the words of a friend I once talked to, "Why the heck would I want to hear about other people's problem when I've got my darned own??".

Touche, friend ((:

~Something New Chapter~

2009-09-20T18:54:00.007+08:00

I have been missing out on so many good bloggable moments and all because I was wayyy too engrossed in my prefectly wonderful virtual world *me is sorry, really* ahahaha. But honestly, when one is tired with the real world and all its silly trivialities, what does one do? Why, if you can't face it, then you retreat into a quiet, safe haven. Mine is, of course, my game ((:

As it is, I shall just put a passing mention on some blog-worthy moments that I felt was worth remembering should I ever decide to get my lazy bum up and moving to my blog.

First off, I happily finished off my two assignments! One in good time, one in just on time hehehe. And then, there was Ayesha and Jocelyn keeping me company while I hurriedly finished up my on time assignment. Ayesha, Jo and I all bickering about the pros and cons of Mafia Wars vs. Sorority Life. Hilarious at best ((: Then, we got hooked onto Restaurant City, with Jo declaring she's quitting the app and giving all her ingredients away to us for free. Love you Jo! And then Ayesha promptly saying, "I need a banana! I WANT a banana!". Turning to me, she asks, "Do YOU have a banana?? Please tell me you possess a banana!" Turning to Jo, she does the same, "Jo I want a banana! Please give me a banana if you have one!"

Suffice to say, I had a tough time concentrating on my work ((: You still rock, Ayesha, though I can't say the same for your Mafia Wars *pfffft*

After that, there's also the past-thorny issue of Someone. It's all no longer a saddening issue. Janet you can stop pooh-poohing at me now haha ((: It is now time, to get a new pet. No, I'm serious. My hamsters are killing me with their rabies (or at least I think they have rabies, the way they keep on squealing and scratching themselves to no end) that they must've transferred to me via their many bites. Heh. Adorable, yes. Touchable, to hell no if you still want your skin intact and free of rabies. Anyone with a great pet suggestion? Like, I dunno, a puppy? A kitty? A snake? Whatever lol.

~Mummy Dear Chapter~

2009-09-14T16:02:00.009+08:00

My mom's very very very belated eating-outing was held yesterday over at OneUtama's Shogun restaurant. Even though I got so many ideas on where to go for the eat-out, ultimately it was my mom who got to decide which type of food she wanted and my dad got to decide where. Hmph. Wait till I'm of age, you'll see where I bring 'em to, mwahahahahaha! Lol kidding, definitely not somewhere I wouldn't be caught dead in with my poor parents in tow. *Smirk* Anywhoo, here's some pix of Japanese food that I managed to snap when I wasn't wolfing down those delectably delicious delights! Go on, be jealous! *wink*

" The time has come, the walrus said, to talk of many things
Of shoes and ships and sealing wax, of cabbages and kings
And why the sea is boiling hot, and whether pigs have wings "

~A Mad Hatter Chapter~

2009-09-10T16:21:00.003+08:00

Thought today would start out badly, what with me nearly blinding myself with trying to stick in my contact lenses and then running almost a half hour late for my Financial class. Happily, I found out almost immediately as I sat down at the seat reserved by "them" that everything would turn out to be a-okay, if not happily mad. Ayesha (hello dear!!) was already in her famous "let's make Milee mad" mode; it turned out to be the grand highlight of the morning with Ayesha doing everything she could to piss Milee to high heavens......and most of the time succeeding. Poor Milee was so confused at one point that she ends up going "I don't know it if I don't like it" instead of the other way around. That set off a hushed mini debate between her, Ayesha, Jo and me. You know you're cute you guys, oh yes you do~!

And then we had to go and talk about what happened yesterday between the four of us and that old, nearly-toothless, wrinkled guard at the main campus' gates. After our Financial lecture, we were just about to exit the main gates when this really hot matsalleh lecture walked past us with his Ipod and crinkly smile. I think we melted. Did we melt? I can't remember haha, too much overexposure to his allure *wink wink* Anywhos, we were grumbling and saying he was too short for his kind when Jo had to go, "It's okay, not like I want him anyway. I only like to look at lelaki", or something to that effect just as we walked past that old man-guard. He promptly turned ham sup and went "SAYA PUN LELAKI!"

Insane laughter was essential of course and we also went ohshitwtfckisthiswei!!!1!! Total malumalumaluuuu!

Heh. Things only got better after Financial's tutorial. During my Buyer Consumer Behaviour tutorial, oh wow didn't some of us have a helluva fun time poking fun and gossing about a certain guy and his certain new love interest. Wayyyy cool hehehe. Shu Yi even had a very nice "case study" for this scenario. If a I-think-I'm-hot-person sits on an unsuspecting guy's lap and the guy doesn't push her off, why is that? Well, it's similar to the action of one giving away free money! I mean, it's free, it's cheap, it doesn't require you to do anything on your part, and hey! you might even benefit from the attention you might get! *pffffft* Someone puhleeeeze shoot 'em. Har. Har.

And then we had more mad moments in the Microeconomics lecture!! The picture might just give you a small teeny tiny idea of what we got up to lol. By the friggin' way, Shu Yi can really be awesome when you get her talking about "serious" issues. Really "serious" issues we got up to, didn't we eh? You be my partner-in-investigation then, after all this haha xD

I saw Someone today ((: Oh happy happy me ((:

" When my love for you is blind
but I couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know "

~The Very Special Day Chapter~

2009-09-09T18:16:00.012+08:00

The very very very very special day of 09/09/09, September the 9th of the year 2009 is well......today!!! And I see LG today, LG sees me today. Cue long eye contact with small smiles. Surprisingly, I'm not thrilled to bits like I would have usually been. I felt.....well, normal would be an okay term to describe it. I have shuffled along. I have lived. I have loved again, this time, an unexpected fall ((:

And omgg today is my dearest mom's birthdayyyy!!!11!!!!1! Like.....ARGHHHH you're getting more matured and wiser (ahem!) and reminding me more of how increasingly precious our time is together. Lotsa lotsa lotsa lotsaaaaaXgajillion-godzillion LOVE from dad, little sissy and mememe!!

Thanks for all the times you've stuck by us no matter how crazay things seem to be getting (which, yes I do know, can be like practically all the darned time). Thanks for all that you've sacrificed in order to help us achieve what we want with very little complaint. Thanks for understanding when to butt in and when not to, most times you know when to stop us doing stuff even though we don't see it your way at that time. Thanks for, well, just being you, a person with a very beautiful heart and a dazzling soul. Thanks for being our mom ((:

Yea that's me hugging her, lovely ain't it? *wink wink*

~To Snag Someone Chapter~

2009-09-08T18:39:00.012+08:00

Amily Soh Li Theng wants me to update my blog more frequently just so that she can blog hop to mine more often to check out what I've been sticking my nosie into (or that's what I think anyway haha). This is some random thingy I picked up off the net "just for the fun of it all".

Like yourself.

Whether you're goofy, silly, crazy, quirky, smart, reserved, or whatever, how can you expect a guy to like you if you don't like yourself? You've got to show this person how awesome you are, but first you need to know how awesome you are. Build up your self confidence. Now, this doesn't mean you have to be loud, boisterous, arrogant, chatty, or forward. It just means getting to a place where you're comfortable in your own skin. You can be secure, sweet and humble all at the same time. Guys like confident, interesting girls who have their own lives. The only guys who like insecure girls are the ones who are insecure themselves. But who wants to be with a guy who wants a girl to feel bad about herself? That's not healthy, and you deserve better.

Get his attention.

He can't fancy you if he doesn't know you exist. If you haven't caught his eye yet, then get him to notice you. You've got to walk before you run, right? Say "Hi". Say "Good-bye". Wave. When he reciprocates, that's when you know he notices you. Introduce yourself somehow and make conversation. Take an interest in who he is -- what he likes, where he's coming from, where he wants to go -- and show him who you are, too. While some guys don't like to talk that much, it's nearly impossible for someone to like you if he doesn't get to know you -- unless he "likes" you for all the wrong reasons.

Crack a joke.

Having a good sense of humor makes everything better. That doesn't mean you should be a giggling fool, laughing at everything that crosses your path. Express your sense of humor in your own way. Some people are witty and sarcastic, others can tell hilarious stories, and many people just do quirky things and poke fun at themselves. No matter what tickles your sense of humor, it's much easier to like someone who you can have a good laugh with once in a while. If you don't find something to laugh about together, then maybe you'll discover that you don't like him after all!

Do things together.

If he loves rock-climbing, ask him if he can show you how, and make a good-faith effort to see why he's so into it. Do have an open mind. Find out what you have in common, and include him in your world. If you love a certain kind of music, ask him if he's ever listened to a particular artist and offer to play a CD for him. Finding activities that you can enjoy together can really lay down a bond and further his appreciation of you.

Have patience.

These things take time. You can't force someone to like you, and trying to hurry things up can ruin the courtship altogether. Give him some space and don't be obsessive. Let things progress at a natural pace, or fade out of natural causes. Eventually he'll tell you one way or another whether or not he's interested in reciprocating your affection. And if he's not, don't hang around him like a lost puppy. Sometimes you might be incompatible in ways that you don't see, and sometimes a guy just isn't ready for a long term relationship. Don't take rejection too personally. It happens. Not everyone in the world is going to like you. Move on! There are other fish in the sea and if you followed the first step, you know that you're a good catch.

~An Empty Space Chapter~

2009-09-07T20:14:00.008+08:00

In a sea of faces, I have never felt so much more alone than I normally do.

" If there's nothing missing in my life

Then why do these tears come at night? "

~Rest Of My Day Chapter~

2009-09-03T19:11:00.005+08:00

No thanks to this blasted A (H1N1) virus scare nonsense, I begin to lose all semblance of my sanity and my sociableness. I missed out on so many outings to the cinema, the karaoke centre where I heard so many friends of mine gave in to the madness that is "screaming their lungs out in harmony with unknown people in TV screens" and even each other's bedrooms!! Oh the horror of knowing what I'm missing out on. I think I'm self-consciously making myself a social outcast *pfffffft* I miss out on Joanne's birthday thingy at somewhere in Sunway, lol heck I can't even remember the place's name!

I saw Someone today ahahaha. I made me happy just by looking ((: And I saw Janet's Red with a person whom I thought many didn't like. Oh well, so long as you view everything with rose-tinted glasses, whoever and whatever would turn out all a-okay I think. I have no idea what I'm going to do with all the time I have, apart from drowning in my books and notes and "cakaran ayam" and oh yeah, my online game~ *winkies* By the way, did anyone know Cappie speaks Cantonese fluently? Milee and LingLing, try not to be too shocked next time, kay?

Oh and to one of my greatest friends HH, thanks so much for trusting me once again with more details of yourself. This friendship I'll forever remember and you, I'll always cherish ((: You rock, bro haha.

~Viva Forever Someone Chapter~

2009-09-02T19:33:00.003+08:00

Today was an ordinary day. A highly ordinary day. Or rather, it would have been that way, and a whole lot boring if it weren't for the randomness of Someone. Yes, Someone kept me hiphophappy all day, minus the closing of the day with Someone saying something that got me wondering whether it was a joke or something I should be taking seriously. Since a few days ago, Someone isn't exactly thrilled there's Another around. And Someone tried talking about it but I'm not exactly the person to want to talk about it, you see where I'm getting at? No? Heh. And thank you SuLing Chan for making me think funny for the rest of today about that Someone and to Amily too, for not supporting me when I tried to defend myself against said SuLing Chan. Will it work out the way I want it to be? I have nooo idea, really truly honestly. I'm missing Someone already.

~Another Goodbye Chapter~

2009-08-28T19:22:00.004+08:00

You can shed tears that he is gone

Or you can smile because he has lived

You can close your eyes and pray that he will come back

Or you can open your eyes and see all he has left

Your heart can be empty because you can't see him

Or you can be full of love you shared

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday

Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday

You can remember him only because he is gone

Or you can cherish his memory and let it live on

You can cry and close your mind

Be empty and turn your back

Or you can do what he would want

Smile, open your eyes, love and go on

This is my goodbye to you, Ah Pek. Goodbyes are always so hard to say, they drain so much emotionally and mentally. I would like to thank you for being the wonderfully caring man you were towards my family. Another beloved life, your candle snuffed out ever so quietly but without pain. I'm glad you got back home before you finally left this world. Wherever you are now, wherever you may go, I do hope your soul rests in peace for all eternity. God Bless.

~The Finally Chapter~

2009-08-21T21:48:00.006+08:00

I finally was able to get my first ever pet after 19++ whole years of waiting and pryaing and hoping. Actually, it's more of pets, since what I got were two adorably FAT hamsters. And for free, too *rubs hands in glee* Even my mom, who's not exactly what you would call an animal hater but you can call a seriously maddeningly strict human, fell in love with the two roundies after only a few hours. Awesome I say ((: I named these two furry round puffballs Snorlex and Schmoley. Hahaha don't ask why, all I'll say is that those names are in honour of "friends" ((:

~Here's To You Chapter~

2009-08-19T13:17:00.010+08:00

I'm awfully exquisitely pleased with myself ((:

I freed myself from the "dark" clutches and made meself a brand new friend.

Hello to you, new friend!

You know who you are, I hope, haha.

If you don't, well, just know I'm glad I know you now.

So cheers to a new friendship, and fine times ahead!!

" I'll lean on you and you lean on me

and we'll be all okay "

~It's That Week Chapter~

2009-08-13T20:32:00.023+08:00

This week has been one helluva eventful merry-go-round (to those who disagree with my viewpoint, here’s my advice to you ::: stfu and go boil your head or go fly kite or whatever it takes to get you away. Period) and here is where I talk about it.

Happening #1
I find out that HH isn’t who he claimed to be, neither does he do what he claims to have been doing for the year or so that I’ve known him (what, you think I’m gonna use real names here?? *pfffft*). He says he's a student, with assignments and homework and stuff like I have. Then, I forgot what I said again, he mentions he doesn't like to lie and absolutely avoids it like the plague if possible. He then goes to say that he has lied once though, and that's about his real identity; I would only get the whole truth once he's trusted me enough. I suddenly remembered a few vague, sketchy details some people had told me and I mentioned them to him, off-handedly of course. I managed to surprise him into telling all, I know now what it is you do haha *huggles* does that mean I'm fully trustable now? Thanks awfully for the honour, HH, you know you're the best; and boy, am I glad I got to know you ((:

Man behind the mask is finally unveiled

Happening #2
HS is an awesomely uberrrr fun guy, full of crazy nonsense and weird jokes, but all in all, mega good to have around! Unfortunately, I get to know just this week of something that he's been up to since, well, 25 years ago. No, I ain't kidding you nor is this a typo. 25years ago. A girl can't have older friends now, eh? *pfffft* Anywhichways, to HS ::: you say noone lasts forever right? I say they do. If a person lives on in people's hearts and is remembered with love, it would mean that he or she would last forever ((: You know half of United already missed you like crazy when you left for awhile, can you imagine the pain you'll be inflicting on us when you "leave"?? )): It isn't easy you know, hearing about someone you care about "leaving" all too soon, wayyy too soon. You say there's another side to you, but then there's also that really good side. You can always work to get the better side out? You know know know we all love you, so why put yourself through all that much of personal torture? I'm sure I speak for at least half of United when I say we'll awfully hate to say goodbye, goodbye seems to be the hardest word to say. Please don't inflict such madness on yourself, you're gonna hurt all of us badly too.

We mourn with those who mourn

Happening #3
I make a new friend, Wei Li, and she turns out to be a really really good friend. She can be highly random too, laughing at nothing and making sudden comments that can prove to be wacky. That only makes her funnier to be around with, honestly ((: Anyway, what makes this the 3rd eventful happening all begins with her and a teeny tiny adorable little hamster. She brings a box into BCB class on Thursday and me, being a nosy little brat, wants to see what's inside the mysterious box. Wei Li pops open the lid and Voila! a silver and white hamster pokes his little pink nose out at me as if saying, "What's up?" ((: Darn squishable I tell you! She says she wants to give it up as it's kinda fierce to its own type, I suddenly pipe up and say, "I WANTTT!!" and wtf. There and then, he's mine, lol. That hamster soon became a star attraction, every single girl who heard about him being present in Uni immediately made a beeline for him. If I were a guy, I'd be totally over the moon at sharing the spotlight. Thing is, Imma girl okayyy and all that unwanted attention just got on my nerves, seriously. I mean, haven't you seen a bloody hamster before, for God's sake?? Gi Google dah bleh dapat nengok dah ishhh. I so feared for the poor little thing, passed around like he was some kind of a circus freak and oogled over and over; think his blood pressure went up a few notches during that harrowing time *blehhh* The pics are enough to show how extremely lovably squishy he is, and how much of a mini celebrity he turned out to be. We had so much fun during that Microeconomics lecture; I swear I never had that much fun before ((: However, disaster struck early in the form of my darling Snorlex (hamster's name, don't ask, he has a weird story behind that name) nibbling a hole through the box holding him that my friend was keeping him in and escaped to his freedom. My poor heart shattered when my friend told me the news, I figured it was the end of my dreams of having a pet for the first time in my 19years of life (Mom are you reading this??!!). And then, and then........Wei Li finds a replacement for me! A teeny tiny hammy with the same colour and markings as the original Snorlex! I wuv you, Wei Liiiiii! Ajajajajaja ^^

~When I Dream Chapter~

2009-08-07T14:30:00.009+08:00

I've had complaints filed to my "department" about how stale and abandoned my blog seems to have become. It must be reflecting the life I have right now. Ha. Ha. Ha.

Anyhows, it's only the second week back at Uni and already I'm struggling to stay awake in lectures and falling asleep whenever possible in tutorials. I'm starting to look like a bloody panda *pffft* I am so darned drained of energy most days, don't know why I can't seem to fall asleep at night. I toss, I turn this way and that, I try counting cows for the umpteenth time..........and all to no avail. I just can't seem to get some proper shut-eye. When I do finally manage to fall asleep, I don't have sweet dreams, or pleasant thoughts.

No. I have nightmares. And most of them are about death.

I see people I know, people I love most, dying. I scare myself awake most times, the shock of these nightmares not fully gone even by the time I wake up. Sometimes I see me die too. My death comes in so many forms, so many ways for me to leave behind this Life. I used to wonder whether my dreams were merely nightmares or a sinister warning for me to heed. Then it happens so often I go, "Ahhh whatever, I think too much".

On a lighter note, we Uni students already have our assignments out and ready for us to tackle. What? It is a lighter topic ain't it, compared to one of Death and Despair, si? Although, I see myself singing a different tune when it comes closer to the assignments' deadlines. I might not be the only one either, wanting to "omgg diediedie" because of our workload. Lol.

~To Begin Anew Chapter~

2009-08-01T13:47:00.006+08:00

I leave my wonderfully accepting perfect world to enter this bleak harsh reality.

I'm missing all the new friends I made already.

Only the first week of uni and I'm starting to feel the nervousness that inevitably comes with assignments.

Desperate times call for desperate means, right? I can justify what I did then.

Will all of you still be there when I return? I hope so.

" Loss is nothing else but change

And change is Nature's delight "

~Decisions Decisons Chapter~

2009-07-09T12:46:00.009+08:00

Too hard.
Why is it so hard?
To decide.
Between one, the other, and another.
And then, there's that one.
Confused?
So am I.....very much so.
I never want to have to decide.
Let me be.

"The measure of love is always loss

It's only in losing someone that

you fully feel the love that bound you"

~Fun Side of Posh Chapter~

2009-07-05T01:37:00.019+08:00

Friends made online can turn out to be wonderful angels in disguise among the many, many devils that exist online as well. It's been wonderful to know you, you know who you are ♥♥♥.

I finally found the courage (lolol) to step out of the house and out of my virtual world to live my life again. In other words, go back to my once-normal-social-life. Darling cousin came over for the weekend, is still here actually haha, and we had a blast of a time. T'is cliche, but hell, time practically whooshes past you without giving you time to draw breathe when you have the bestest fun. Almost time for her to go back, she's due back at her students' residence Sunday evening. Only a mere few hours away. Am spending time updating my blog about the latest escapades we always seem to get up to, as I keep an ear open to the conversation between mom, cousin and occasional interruption from sister.

Went out for lunch at this club that I personally feel is rundown, but was apparently the "in place to be" about 50 years ago. Lunch there was ok I guess, for their standards, nothing to shout about. Went off to dad's client's condo. Took loads of piccies and had oodles of fun doing the weird, wacky (we specialise in 'em, yeah!) stuff we cook up. Will let the pix tell the tales I want to tell but am too lazy to haha. Later at night, we wanted to eat seafood at Fatty Crab over in Taman Mega but since it was packed to the roof with people, we went to the opposite restaurant instead. Food was ok and I "enjoyed" making a fool of myself hammering away at bloody hard crab shells that stubbornly refuse to break. Heh. Later on, t'was my cuzzie darling's early 21st birthday! Hippiest burfday sweetie! You ain't old, just a "senior teenager" rofl! Love you loads, xoxoxoxo.....

~What a Day Chapter~

2009-07-01T18:03:00.009+08:00

Someone once mentioned to me that I was so lucky to have a month long of semester breaks and yet I'm sitting at home, alone, making my butt grow bigger with my addiction to my online game. Pffft. Guess what? I lost 1kg doing simply nothing. Since I'm so absorbed in my virtual world, I forget to eat (ahahahaha) and thus can burn those jiggly love handles easily. Anywhichways, my beloved game has decided to act up, and I mean really act up, and is lagging crazily horribly madly. As it was, I was banging angrily away at my keyboard and the screen, hoping it'll all be ok, but nooo the darned thing still remained obstinately stuck. Sighing, I decided to do something else, something more productive.

Half an hour later. Life finds me stoning at the scattered newspapers on the coffee table and the floor, trying to make some sense of the jumbled words. No use. Give up.

An hour plus later. Life finds me stoning on the bed, trying my very darndest best to catch some shut-eye (God knows I needed some badly). Not working either. Give up.

Two hours later. Life finds me stoning at the blasted computer screen, wishing and hoping and praying that my game had miraculously found its way back to normalcy. Nope. Give up.

Two and a half hours later. Life finds me sobbing miserably in a crumpled heap in the darkest corner of a room that I can find. Am just kidding. Game is back to normal speed and am happily ensconced in my beloved virtual world. Stick myself on autopilot and come out here to blog about how "life-threatening" and very "enlightening" my day was.

Lol. Yes, I love me too ^^~

~And So It Is Chapter~

2009-06-26T15:42:00.013+08:00

My semester finals are over.

Wayyyy unbelievable.

And to think it all boiled down to this really intensive week.
Suddenly,
BOOM!!
it's all over and I'm like, "Whoa".
Seriously.

I now have a month of freedom and I think I also need a new distraction.

Maybe I should seek out new horizons.

" I think I need a sunrise
I'm tired of sunsets "

Today was supposed to be the "last meal" together of Group1.1.

Most ended up going to Sunway Pyramid alright.

Then the "split-up" began.

Some didn't wanna eat lunch yet, preferring a movie.

Some went for Japanese food.

Some, like us, decided for Western (read ::: McD's).

And some, well, didn't go at all.

Heh.

No togetherness after all )):

" The girl that you want

She's everything, everything I'm not "

~I'm Screwing Finals Chapter~

2009-06-16T08:55:00.005+08:00

Been awhile since I last posted something up here. Couldn't really get away from the bloody textbooks, and the nagging guilty conscience that comes screaming at me everytime I try to stop and stone for abit. Heh. My semester finals are up next Monday and yet I can still be here crapping. MCB I think I might be okay with, just gotta make sure I know the formats and my grammar isn't shitty on that day. ADA I think I might survive since the subject level is slightly better than that of my SAM days. MGT I really do think I might have a shot at passing the bloody subject, oh yes really! (blehh who am I kidding??) Haha and finally, my (arguably) most favourite subject of the semester, MKT. I think I could do well if only my brain cells would take in more information. And if you had noticed, I said "I think" not "I can" the whole way. I'm as good as screwed then *sigh* This is how ol' me gets when the going gets tough.

~Go Farrrr Away Chapter~

2009-06-08T22:09:00.011+08:00

I absolutely hate it when someone stubbornly insists on you finding out something all alone with no effing clues given even when you've spent a hell load of a time cracking your head open trying to recall something that you just can't seem to recall. Pisses me off to no end, honestly. I mean like, wth, is it so HARD just to say out whatever it is you're trying to tell me??? I mean like, c'mon man, I've got much better things to do than to sit around all day trying to amuse you and playing such lame games you want me to. Pfffft. Leave me alone la, why don't you?

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On a lighter note, I love, lemme repeat

L O V E

LG's voice. I mean, seriously mannnn, that is ONE smooth voice *swoons*

Shaddup, Liyun. Shaddup.

Thank God for other people who love me for me. Heh.

~Dead Bored Chapter~

2009-06-04T21:03:00.006+08:00

This is what one resorts to doing when one is dead bored out of one's mind and there are many props conveniently lying around with oodles of imaginative ideas running through one's brain as well ::: take loads of self-shots then edit it so it comes out looking nicer. Hehehehe *does a silly evil victory dance*

Mega huge credits go out to me, myself, I, Photoscape and Stephen!!!!!

~And I Present Chapter~

2009-05-31T22:06:00.006+08:00

I've been having the strangest dreams everrrr.

One ::: I dreamed a group of my friends (SuLing, Amily, Jen, Brian, Alex, forgot-who-else) and I were stranded with little cash and little knowledge in Indonesia. Mighty scary crap, specially since we were all separated and it wasn't till the end that we found each other. Woke up wondering where I was and where the others had gone to. Lol to you too.

Two ::: I dreamed that I had died. And everyone I knew attended my funeral, I could actually see 'em looking at me. Crying? No idea, they were probably laughing with glee pfffft. Then, the wonder of all stories happened, I came back to life, two days later. I mean like, yeah, WTF??

Three ::: I keep having recurring dreams that I'm in a car, either in the passenger seat or the back seat, and suddenly the car goes into full runaway mode. And then, I'm forced to take over the darned wheel and stop the car before it causes an accident or a fatality or whatever.

Luckily I had today to distract me. Went out to One Utama with Cheryl, her whole family (I kid you not), Stpeh and Jeff. One big happy group, literally. Watched Terminator (or, as in Jeff's words, Termometer *cue outright laughter from the rest of us again*) and omfg it was mega coooool!!! I loved John Connor but when I saw Marcus Wright, I was practically squealing in the cinema~!! Lucky the darned cinema was so dark, couldn't see the way my cheeks became tomatoes *blush*

Ate later on at A&W (minor disagreement and foncusion about where to go initially) and then BOOM! a stark fact hit me in the head. The two guys were being mighty silent and when asked why, it turned out that it seemed to them as if we were having so much fun without them. Uh-oh.

GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN!!!!!

I know I suck as a newfound friend and a "hostess" of sorts since OU is in my territory *ahem*, but give me time and I promise to try and change for the better. Best. Gooder. Whatever. Lol, janji tukar kan? Ahahahaha love you guys to bits ^^~

Must have more outings *jiayou jiayou*!!

~Screw the Madness Chapter~

2009-05-28T09:15:00.007+08:00

All assignments are now done; dead and gone.

I know I've messed up big time and no excuses can be made.

Time for me to clean up that messy mess.

Heck, the world's already screwed as far as I know.

Time for me to do a disappearing act for a while.

~Back & Forth Chapter~

2009-05-25T14:15:00.010+08:00

I have had decidedly more fun over the weekend during my recent short trip back to Penang then me being sad. Reason for trip? Attend funeral of step-grandmother's (on my mom's side). Reason for not being that sad? Wasn't that close to step-grandmother and besides, the word "step-grandmother" should be enough to tell you how close my mom really was to her. Anyways~ had been a long time since I last saw my cousins (three and a half months to be exact lol!) and it was uber great to see all my family again. Most of time in the car was spent rolling my eyes at my sister who was happily snapping away with the digital camera at a million shots a second. So here are some of her "better" masterpieces, and a few shots as well of how 'tis in and near the G Hotel, Gurney Drive hahaha :::

And then, ohmigoodness, and THEN, there was the amount of good food at mega cheap prices over at Penang! I tell you, I was drooling everytime it was meal time (which happened often, those meal times, such happy hours ^^). No wonder people get so fat so easily whenever in Penang; it's almost like an eat-all-you-can buffet at an affordable rate (I'm missing Penang's goodies already~~) *whimpers*. We only spent like, what, RM100? And we ordered plates upon platters upon bowls of food, all thanks to me mom, who went quite mad ordering everything that took her fancy (HI MOM! I LOVE YOU!) ^^ Some examples are :::

Char Hor Fun - RM3.80

Char Koay Teow - RM3.30

Fried Oysters - RM6.00

Char Koay Kak - RM2.00

Cheezy Chicken - RM7.50

Chicken Katsu - RM7.00

Chicken Carbonara - RM7.50

Spaghetti Carbonara - RM5.00

Drinks - RM9.20

You all jealous now, hmmm? Lol you should be!!

~Crystal Lives Chapter~

2009-05-21T23:27:00.007+08:00

So many deaths. So much pain. So how do I fully deal with it all? Crystal lives, so beautiful and yet, so wonderfully fragile. So easily shattered.

"How does dying really feel like?"

Letting a loved one go is bad enough. Letting even more of them go, back home to where they truly belong is even more heartbreaking. It makes you wonder about your time here.

"Will I ever see you again?"

Let me go, they say. And then move on, they advise. When it is time for you to walk this path alone, remember, I'll be waiting for you at the end to welcome you home.

"Can I really hear the angels sing?"

Rest In Peace, Ah Mah. For all eternity.

P/S ::: Thank you so much kor, for being there for me exactly when I needed you; exactly when I felt like my days couldn't be lightened anymore. You know just how to make it all livable again. My life would definitely suck without you ((:

~Icy Outing Chapter~

2009-05-20T21:35:00.007+08:00

My hypertension-heart attack-inducing-assignments ended about a week ago and yet I never did get down to updating my blog even though my very bones were screaming for me to. It all boiled down to me having completely satisfying lazy bumbum. I love it when I can indulge in such sins like laziness and boredom. Haha.

Anyways~ I haz a great time on Toozdehh. Cheryl my darling came with HER darling, Stephen, and his friend, Jeff. Great people them, hahaha, though both were highly timid and shy for guys. Goodness only knows why they were so scared, apparently according to Cheryl, they were afraid of me. Yes, me. No actually, it was my English that intimidated them. If it were my looks that gave them the heebie-jeebies or my size that gave them the creeps, then I guess it might be understandable (or then again, it might not). But no, it was the language I used, for Pete's sake. Rightttt.

After the 1st ADA lecture, I went off to Kaylie's house to chillax and wait for the 3 tardy people. In the end, when they did arrive, it was too have many difficulties trying to park the car inside Kay's house. Was terribly funny to hear Cheryl screaming at them; seriously, you should see the way Kay and I were laughing; even more so when we heard that Steph wasn't capable of making a three point turn even to save his life LOL. At last, after lunch and a pointless tour of both Taylor's main campus and business scholl, seeing as how Steph already knew most of it and Jeff just managed to look lost. Oh well, I tried~

Sunway Pyramid. Where I no longer became the "iceskating virgin". And where I realised my butt didn't provide as much cushioning as I hoped it would. I found out how tight the skating boots were and how slippery ice could really be (honest I never knew!!). Funniest sight ever was when Kaylie went in first with such ease and helped me slip and slide my measly way in. Next in was Jeff, he did okay coming in. Steph was next and looked almost exactly as I had coming in. Oh well, we tried~

God knows what happened next, but all of a sudden, I find myself clinging to the sides while Jeff and Steph are piled onto me. Me thinks Steph pushed Jeff for the fun of it all so'd he'd land on me but the poor dude ends up slipping as well. Imagine, me holding up two guys with only the sides and Kay's hand for support. But stand I did and there were nary any falls from me except for those two times I did a leg split and a drop on the butt all thanks to an overeager Kay who kept tugging at my hand to go faster and faster.

Later on, back in the safety of campus, Amily got bored with the ADA lecture and whatever it was the lecturer was saying and decided to get all creative again. I managed to grab two pix of her brilliant creativity and got down to the up-and-coming job of posting them here in my blog for all to see. Oh I even included a picture of my gloves and the entry band, which of course, I took out of boredom. Heh.

~Day of Days Chapter~

2009-05-14T16:18:00.006+08:00

Kaylie is one funny girl. Why? She doesn't seem to be able to tell the difference between Kotex and Durex. Yup, you heard right. Poor girl got foncused today specially when Kotex came to Taylor's Subang Jaya to promote their products. Evidence can be read here :::

Kaylie: What's going on there?
Me: Think it's some promotion thingy.
Kaylie: Eh come let's go collect some Durex.
Me: *staring blankly at her* Huh?
Kaylie: Aiyo, they're giving out free Durex right? I wanttt~
Me: *giving her that classic shocked look*
Kaylie: WAIT!!! I meant Kotex!! *after having spotted the huge signboards all around*
Me: Aisayyy (==" )

Hahahaha, keep on rocking sox Kay~

Anyway, I am feeling so totally overboard guilty right now. Was supposed to pop on over to my pet-brother's house for another "tasting" session but I end up oversleeping and this is my first ever time I bail out on him and even though he's done it a few times to me before I still feel so guilty and I don't even know why and I should be feeling justified but noooo this ol' heart of mine is refusing to let me see it in any other way but as a guilt-tainted version of it.

I'm very sowee?

~Sorrowful End Chapter~

2009-05-11T18:03:00.011+08:00

Today was supposed to be one of madness, seeing as I wasn't as blur as usual and I brought my camera to uni, which meant a whole opportunity of picture taking sessions during the one time everyone was present :::

During Management classes.

Without the lecturer noticing or maybe she just couldn't be bothered, we (meaning Shi Hui and I, acting as the amateur photographers for the day) snapped away and I'll post some up here, those which I think are the best and less blurry.

It didn't end as happily as I thought it would though. I come home and barely an hour later, I get the tragic news that my aunt's father, the one my family all fondly refers to as "Ah Kong", had passed away peacefully due to old age somewhere around noon. We were close to him, having stayed under the same roof everytime we went back to Penang, which was often. We'll miss you, Ah Kong.

"Sometimes, goodbye's the only way. Just follow the light and don't look back. May you rest in eternal peace, Ah Kong. We will always remember you as the loving one with the always-ready smile."

Even death is not to be feared by one who has lived wisely ::: Buddha.

Here comes goodbye

Here comes the last time

Here comes the start of every sleepless night

The first of every tear I'm gonna cry

Here comes the pain

Here comes me wishing things had never changed

But here comes goodbye

~Dark Thoughts Chapter~

2009-05-08T13:19:00.010+08:00

I have just discovered that it is not quite possible to curse a person with the help of black magic if you don't have something personal of theirs or are unable to visualize the person's face clearly. Something like that. Oh well. I knew it'd be too good to be true anyway.

I think I managed to screw up my marketing presentation today. I'd expected slip-ups but this was waaayyy beyond my control; can't believe I messed up what I was supposed to say, forgot to mention one sub-topic, read from my cue cards and the slides, etc *Jen if you're reading this, sorryyy!*

I was browsing through DeviantArt recently and stumbled upon this Deviant's profile with the most one really cool darkart themed gallery. The pictures are all so bleak and foreboding, some even look sinisterly grim. Heh, I like those words, they shiver me timbers somewhat ((:

Some even look like the inner demons that reside within me, straining and screaming.

~Love Bits Chapter~

2009-05-07T20:21:00.008+08:00

Was having a lousy day, what with my mom going into nagging overdrive *jeez* and having to worry about my presentation tomorrow (what if I screw up?? what if I forget my lines??). Then this email came through from my cousin and I decided to post it up with a "special" picture I took. Lol, love you "kai ma" and "kai pa"~! I'm sure some have read this email before but anyways, here goes :::

♥ To My Friends Who Are.....SINGLE

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose only the best.

♥ To My Friends Who Are.....NOT SO SINGLE

Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be. It isn't about finding someone you can live with, it's about finding someone you can't live without.

♥ To My Friends Who Are.....PLAYBOY/GIRL

Never say "I love you" if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a person can do to another is to let that person fall in love when there's no intention to catch the fall.

♥ To My Friends Who Are.....MARRIED

Love is not about "it's all your fault", but "I'm sorry". Not "where are you", but "I'm right here for you". Not "how could you", but "I understand". And never "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are".

♥ To My Friends Who Are.....ENGAGED

The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other. When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

♥ To My Friends Who Are.....HEARTBROKEN

Heartbreaks last as long as you want them to last and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

♥ To My Friends Who Are.....NAIVE
How to be in love ::: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.

♥ To My Friends Who Are.....POSSESSIVE

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else, but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

♥ To My Friends Who Are.....AFRAID TO CONFESS

Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love is so close and yet, has no idea how you feel.

♥ To My Friends Who Are.....STILL HOLDING ON

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now, he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....

♥ AND TO ALL MY FRIENDS.....
My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.

~Little Friend Chapter~

2009-05-06T16:40:00.008+08:00

I feel like I'm really lucky to have met a great friend that's simply adorable (haha you agree with me on this right, SuLing? ^^) from the day-camp in Genting. Though he may be 20 and I'm 19, he IS kinda vertically challenged and young-ish looking so I somehow get the older role hehehe~ Technically, he's only 6months older so heh, not much difference me thinks lol. One of our recent conversations had my dear friend, SuLing, going "Ahhhhh I want a friend like him toooo~!!". He is THAT friendly and super easy to get along with. Did I mention adorable? Hahahaha as much as the kitty in the picture yea~~

Please ignore the language and grammar, I only edited some words to make it clearer, the rest I left at its original (=

ME ::: Lol come to the hall so late today why?

HIM ::: Yea lo. Coz I wake up late today and decide to skip de but at last I go.

ME ::: Ohh I geddit, you dowan to come but gf ask you to come so you guai guai go la.

HIM ::: No la. I go cuz I wanna see you de.
ME ::: Awww my little bro so nice hor? *sob* I'm very happy now~

HIM ::: Yea la. So guai. So long I didn't see you mah. You oso didn't belanja I eat.
ME ::: Alamak yea hor. Suppose to bring you go Pavillion right? Aiyo sorry la. Who ask you never come to KL on time? Next time bah ok? ((:
HIM ::: Haizzz. That's why. Jie Jie no come fetch me la. I wait for her at the front door for so long leh.
ME ::: Front door of wht?? Got meh??
HIM ::: Oh erm, the front door at my _____ house.

ME ::: Omg you mean I'm supposed to FETCH u frm _____ come to KL? Aiyooo how? I oso dunno which house xD
HIM ::: Oooh. Nevermind la. You starting to know me more from now on. Hehehe.

Gosh. And to think I nearly bailed out on the day-camp and miss meeting this person!

~I'm Repenting Chapter~

2009-05-06T07:32:00.007+08:00

After spending a sleepless night due to the fact that I had cheated on my true sayang (as mentioned in my other blog post), Ayesha *omg hahahahaha*, I have decided to make this new post to accord for my "sins".

Hokayyyyys, here goes~ :::

ME LUPLUP YOU SAYANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

Woot, there!! Now I can rest in peace, knowing I did well, knowing I have repented~~

~Whoop Whoop Chapter~

2009-05-05T18:26:00.009+08:00

This blogpost is dedicated especially to the one love in my life.

Chan Su Ling.

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That's all the dedication there is folks!! Mwahahahahaha~~ Was forced to put her name in here actually.

Now on to more pressing matters than her (xP). I made an utter complete fool of myself in front of "Lookalike" today. Not just once. Nope, not twice either. But three god-awful times! Yes, you may laugh at me now, I permit it for just this once. First, he caught me in a "frozen in shock" dancing-in-seat-while-cheering pose. He looked on in disbelief. Then when I was out telling Lisa about my latest embarassing caper complete with movements and facial expressions, I half-turned and BANG! there he was again. Witness to my silliness. He looked on in shock.

Then after he'd walked away to presumably look for someone, he came back to the same spot and stood nearby. I didn't know how near me he was. Unfortunately, Lisa helped embarass me further by saying loudly "Eh come I push you there!" and "Aiyo go nearer him laaa!!". I peeked and he was only a few feet away. Omfg. I swear I died of humiliation. Thank you, Lisa, you know I love you~ Heh (==)

Anyways, I just noticed "Munchys" got a new haircut today and gawd he looks even more hotter-slash-adorable-slash-droolworthy than before. If that's even possible or legal. He shouldn't be allowed to roam loose with that degree, that level of hunkiness! Lawl~ Me likessssss......

~NO MORE HOLS Chapter~

2009-05-04T20:02:00.007+08:00

First day of back-to-uni and already I feel like dying *HOLS OVER ALREADY OMG??* It might just be the Monday blues or it just might be my forevermuddledmind. Whatever it is, it made me yawn for umpteen times till I cried flowing tears of boredom and frustration. Started off with me arriving late after my carpool friend, on the verge of arriving in Subang Jaya, made a hasty U-TURN and drove us all the way back to TTDI to grab his friend's handphone he had left behind. Sigh. At least I get to hog his shades all the way back again to uni wheee. With the traffic jam and idiotic motorcyclists on the road, we finally arrived close to 8am, he parked near the Burger King row of shops and I practically marched all the way to TBS.

Thank God the lifts weren't all that full, or else I'd be dragging my limp, half-dead body up flights of stairs to get to the 5th floor. Heh, no kidding. After that I realised that I hadn't done the calculations for the ratios as needed in my Accounts tutorial even after Jen had reminded me countless times till she could've vomited blood (just an expression of speech here people, no need to panic). Thus began another mad rush, this time copying down all the workings for the ratios. All the rushing about and severe panicking gave me a headache and I was hoping for a more laidback atmosphere after the 2hour break.

The relaxed atmosphere turned out to be more than I bargained for. It turned out to be dead boring. Period. Management tutorial classes have never failed so far to be spot-on in making people sleep within the first 5minutes of lessons. I realized how comfortable the table in front of me was and as I sank lower into my cat-stretching pose, I realized what a futile attempt it all was to resist the “mother of all horror stories”. Lethargic sleepiness. At the end of the day, what made it all bearable were my friends and their ridiculous zanyness. Without 'em, I dunno how I'd survive for long enough haha. We were all busy debating on what the whole class had to "pakat" to wear and we ended up with prom wear and I thought I heard someone say "How 'bout we do jammies??" Omfg really.

~New Changes Chapter~

2009-05-02T14:19:00.004+08:00

I have a good mind to haul a new author who is a friend of mine onboard deck here, should make things much more interstesting than it already is, keeping in mind that we have totally different ways of expressing ourselves. Oh well, keep eyes peeled for the grand unveiling of the new hoomin if it all comes through then. I realise I will be having new "family members" next semester when I move on to new class timings and all. Aww jeez, do I really have to lose all the friends I just made? Well sure, we could always see each other during lectures or keep in contact via MSN or something, but it ain't gonna be the same. No more teasing each other, no more ribbings and jokings, no more high-end happy class outings. Sigh. Can you feel the loneliness I feel now? The laments are only just beginning.

~Luxurious Escapade Chapter~

2009-05-01T16:30:00.011+08:00

As I sit here typing, I'm being bothered by a little moonster with peanut buttery fingers and the most annoying laugh ever. I'm also suffering from a severe case of the "explushions", namely the hiccups and the sneezles. Anyway, this post isn't about me, no no, it's all about the lunch date I had with my family in Starhill Gallery, the one my "little" friend wanted to tag along with. The food we had in Eddy's Cafe & Restaurant were only so-so, nothing to shout about. Mine was seriously salty though and my mom's was highly peppery. The chefs must have very muted tastebuds to have poured so much seasoning in. And we had impromptu "self-shot" moments in the very nice, uniquely designed toilet. Later on, we all decided to get even more fuller and fatter by stuffing ourselves with ice-kacang in the Pavillion. Heh. The day also begin off on a surprising note, what with a turned-turtle car blocking the flow of traffic near my neighbourhood. And yes yes, I know the last picture of the wee doggie is not relevant or anything, but it's the awesomely adorable doggie of my dad's friend we visited at night. Hehehehe.

~Random Postings Chapter~

2009-04-30T16:21:00.016+08:00

I have a pet dislike for people who put the blame on others even though the blame is clearly theirs to take. And then they put on that innocently sweet facade so that they may look like the victims. Pahhh. Oh well, I guess you can say these are the people who "spice" things up, literally. They make people boil with rage actually. But I digress. Anyway, I got this from randomly checking out people's blogs, Marian's in particular (=

Rules ::: Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 7 people.

1. Age of next birthday ::: Twenty (shit the "terrible twos"........nooo!!)

2. A place I would like to travel to ::: Yorkshire, England
3. A favourite place ::: Stables with a cozy, rustic feel, definitely!

4. Nickname I had ::: "Yun" (omg it's also U-Know of DBSK's name yay!!)

5. A favourite colour: Blue (well, purple too, but they only wanted one so it was eeny-meeny-miny-mo)

6. A favourite food ::: LASAGNA~! *drools over keyboard*

7. College/ University major ::: Business Management (sounds boring.....it IS sometimes)

8. Name of my love ::: Tough one, had to decide between FOOD and SLEEPING but ta-daa~ Sleep it is (=

9. A hobby ::: ♥ Horseback riding (since always) ♥

10. A bad habit ::: Getting mad reallll fast (hear me *ROARRR*)
11. My wishlist ::: A puppyyy! Omg see how adorable this one is??
People to tag --> Anyone who wants to do this or has nothing else better to do (eg ::: itchy hands, dead boredom, wtv) lol~

~Dinner Time Chapter~

2009-04-27T20:43:00.012+08:00

The German dinner held at Aman Suria was an okay-okay affair, not as fun and mad-dash as the 1st one, but nevertheless still giving us that very rare opportunity to mingle and make contact with the Germans. Oh who am I kidding. Twas a wee bit boring, what with us Chinese being a little left out, but all in all, the food was great? Ahahaha I waaay preferred the previous one, where even though I was the babysitter for six tiny little German mischieves, we all still had oodles and ubers of fun. Especially the fact that one of the kids, Robbie, became my "extraordinary friend" for that night, and he really helped turn things upside down. I wasn't in the mood for picture takings during the 2nd outing so I'll just post up the long overdue ones that were taken from the 1st one~

~Class Outing Chapter~

2009-04-24T16:44:00.012+08:00

I am sooooo tired. Believe it. Started the day off with an early morning meeting with CY in the cafeteria. As usual, I had to wait abit before he turned up. As it is, I spent the time yawning and kap chai-ing so I didn't mind the short wait so much hahahaha ((: Later on, I rushed over to TBS and met MiniJelly there. The crowd pushed the poor boy along so all he managed was a "HEY" before he disappeared. Finally decided that running up the stairs to the 5th floor with Kok Hui was a good idea since the lifts were all jam packed; decided on the way up the 2nd floor that I must've been possessed to have thought running up steep steps were a good idea. Heh.

After class, all of us made our respective ways to Sunway. Jen, Kaylie, Shain and I were the 1st ones to reach, us being the highly "kan cheong" ones. Had a great brunch in Delifrance, Jen and I were the only ones who managed to finish up our set lunches; Kaylie only ate all of our greens while Shain nibbled on the food here and there. After everyone had FINALLY reached Sunway, the movie "Threads of Destiny" was chosen as the one for everyone to watch. Movie turned out to be alright in my opinion, full of moral values and making me reflect on whether there IS such a thing as the one person for us that's somehow bound to us by fate's threads. I should quit sounding like some frigging philantrophist. I need my munchys for real. Pictures are finally here peeps!

P.S ::: Brenda, if you're reading this, there's no need for you to be so shy~ Jimmy and you make an awesome couple, like, DUH! (;
P.P.S ::: Abit of randomness here, to the guy sitting next to me in the web, I think your scent is how I imagine heaven to be *blush* =x

~Till Tomorrow Chapter~

2009-04-23T21:46:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow will be a day full of promise, excitement, fulfillment and clarity. Yeah, right it will. Well actually, no, I would like to contradict myself here. It would definitely be fun and a highly great time to bond with those I consider my good friends. We’ll all 18 of us be going to Sunway Pyramid in a show of camaraderie, evidence of how well we’ve connected over such a short span of time in our University life. I don’t think I could say the same for my College life and so I’m determined to enjoy our outing; I owe the people I care about that much.

On another note, Daddy dearest has just told us that we'll be having another barbecue dinner with the German families again come this Sunday. I have no idea how I'm to feel about that. On one hand, it'll be fun to mingle with them again, I remember how entertaining they were the last time. On the other hand, I don't think I'll be up to the task AGAIN of baby-sitting the little German kids. One word for that ::: exhausting. Seriously, the thought of running after all of the little ones tire me out already.

Oh well, I have my week long study break to look forward to (hint ::: I'm being sarcastic here). I have so many assignments to finish up, the only thing during the break I'll look forward to would be sleeping till 1pm every single day.

~Acidic Hatred Chapter~

2009-04-22T17:59:00.022+08:00

[She purely, absolutely loathes it when..........]

..........nosy, busybody-ish people who do not have the privilege to know or read about what's going on, still stupidly insist on getting the inside info, by hook or by crook.

..........ridiculously self-centered people seem to find it their rights and duty to stress out and pressure other people to follow their exact way for things to be done.

..........people she really, really, really, really (that should be enough) doesn't like follows her in certain things; the phrase "imitation is the best form of flattery" seriously don't apply in this case.

.........."some" people just don't get the whole idea of {backoffyou'rebeingtoomuchofabitchypainintheass} even though it's shoved right in front of them.

.........the highly irritating way the said people always walk around with a self smugness kind of look that just makes you wanna give 'em a good 'ol whack/slap/punch/kick/bite *rawrrrr* wtv really.

..........people take it for granted that respect and good people come by very easily; well fyi, both have to be earned, they can be lost majorrrr easily and tis hard to get them back.

..........the ones she care about start arguing/fighting and it all don't look as though it's going to go down well.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

~Combined Trouble Chapter~

2009-04-21T15:06:00.015+08:00

We are supposed to be having a study break for a week beginning this Saturday.

(blah blah blah yi bin was here :P)

But then again *spotlight back to me please, thanks* I'm also still forced to complete, or at the very least get a majorrr head start on, the four assignments that we uni students have as all four apparently have the same deadline. Ain't no holiday in the park. Doom and boohoo. No, seriously.

And oh how I hate when a parent seems to take it for granted that he/she is able to say whatever they want whenever they want without considering your feelings at all just because "I'm your parent". Total pfffft if you ask me. Like, wtf, am I not human too with feelings and emotions that can easily be torn, especially if such cruel words come from my own flesh and blood? Do I not bleed silently and scream within but am unable to say anything out of respect, though you can see how I seeth and loathe it? I thought so, you only see what you want to.

Not only that, I have no Biscuit, no Lookalike, no Snoopy, no nothing whatsoever. Heh. At least I have my ♥MiniJelly♥ , hahaha, thanks for brightening up any day that I get thrown at me. Huggles to you really~ Now back I go to that cold hard clam of a shell I constantly use to protect my heart. Let me be.

~Genting Outing Chapter~

2009-04-19T14:15:00.023+08:00

The team-building outing over at Genting on Saturday was a mish mash of happenings and emotions. Was a bit of a let down since the activites they said would take place didn't really materialise as promised. Like, for the flying fox event, I thought it'd be way high up and a long way down to the bottom. It turned out to be one heck of a spoiler as it was SO short (it was just a few stairs up a small hillside to get to the top end) and took only a few seconds to reach. The flying fox in NS was sooo much more better, at least it was 6 stories high. The abseiling was supposed to be better at 6 stories high in the outdoor arena but since they "thought" it was going to rain (soft thunder and the wind blowing, yeah that signifies rain, pffft), we were brought to the indoor arena (after lunch, buffet style, not very delish) with a teeny tiny thing they called the abseiling board. The other "challenges" they organised were on an okay-par but I got alot of sore muscles and bruises from 'em. Kelvin was the best, he gamely took on anything we threw at him and he didn't even complain woot! I left for home with a wee bit sense of unfulfillment though.

At least, the company present there helped ease the whole aura of unsatisfied-ness that existed. Made several new friends and some of them were the absolute BOMB, they were THAT awesome, my doodness ahahaha!! The ones I knew and had with me were also the very greatest too!! Love you guys muchos, I'm sure you know who you are, I was showing it madly enough; if not, remind me occasionally to show it again and again and again and AGAIN mwahahahaha~ I'll let the pix do the talking now

~Flowing Along Chapter~

2009-04-17T17:50:00.009+08:00

To Jen ::: *sigh* Oh well, it's the way things are and yeah, sometimes life sucks, gotta live with it eh? ><

To Amily ::: I am sooo glad I ain't in Biscuit's group anymore, don't think I can live with that. Heh. You can still have that PB of yours if you want~? ^^

To SuLing ::: Lol. You know you're the best, thanks for teman-ing me, just what I need to forget~!! =)

To YiBin ::: Just because I was hurt, doesn't mean I shouldn't bleed. Eheheheh just kidding, why so serious?? o.O

To Me? ::: Harharhar. Both targets down. And no more to go. Whaddya gonna do now huh? Pffft. ==

And oh, P/S, to YouKnowWho ::: You really honestly need to chill from all the darned bitchiness woman. Give your friends a break, you're really lucky they don't just up and abandon your sorry ass, you're pretty ungrateful hmm?

~Untouched Vengeance Chapter~

2009-04-15T18:55:00.007+08:00

The Veronicas ::: In Another Life

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life

The Veronicas ::: Revenge Is Sweeter (Than You Ever Were)

Are you even listening when I talk to you?
Do you even care what I'm going through?
Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me
Do you even know how much it hurts?

Today I learn another new matter to ponder over thanks to my Master Shifu, Jen ::: "The higher your hopes are, the harder you'll fall". Oh how so true tis one to be. And now not even you can save me. Will someone wake me up? And if this is a dream I wonder, could someone wake me up? Eeeyup, time to move on and heal again.

~Ahahaha Ouch Chapter~

2009-04-14T14:57:00.006+08:00

Today.
I died.

12 hours straight.

Of seeing TUCSJ.

Only lectures what's more.

Dayym.

My butt's already feeling cramped.

Like, seriously.

I can't wait for this weekend's leadership camp.

I get to release stress easily then.

I wanna be in the same group as "Biscuit".

I end up with uknwhu instead.

What to do?

It's just my luck~
At least I see the "lookalike" in the Web, he's right in front of me ^^
Oh, happyness.

P/S ::: Oh bless our asses.

~Unknown Affliction Chapter~

2009-04-13T21:58:00.008+08:00

I get bored easily. Like, really very easily easy. It's a debilitating disease. But since I have no time to get bored when I'm doing my assignments, I thus get bored at the oddest times of the day like when I'm about to fall asleep or when I'm taking a shower. Heck, I even get bored while I eat food. Yes, fooood. The wonderful elixir of Life hehehe. Improbably impossible? Nahhh, not with meee~ Therefore this is where I post piccies I took of "when-liyun-is-duper-bored-and-has-nothing-to-do-to-keep-her-itchy-hands-busy" :::

As you can see, yes I'm highly bored right now, and therefore this post is born with the whole purity of boredom within. Heh.

~What A Day Chapter~

2009-04-09T17:08:00.015+08:00

Today is a day that would be hard to beat on most lists of "What A Day". Good and bad things happen altogether at once in a jumble that leave me breathless and exhausted.

Goods :::
1) I get to drive Suling's car all the way to Sunway without any major mishaps or losing of way!! In fact, I got us out of abit of lostness (except for the part where I nearly knocked a motorbike, bloody bugger couldn't decide whether he wanted to overtake or not so I "decide" for him, I overtake HIM and the bugger beeped at me wtf).
2)We had a smashing time just chilling at Sunway together and bitching about you-know-who hehehehe (you-know-who must really learn to bugger off people's butts more often, you ain't welcome FYI, if you didn't know already. Pfffft).
3) I had a weird but "cool" time fooling around with BC (otherwise known as PB) lol......can be great fun once BC/PB is your friend and you don't mind the over-the-top and sometimes lame flirting. Like, seriously.

Bads :::
1) In the morning, dad and I witness a heated fight between an old Chinese man in an old Mercedes and a 40-something Chinese man on an old motorbike. Ends up with the motorbike man looking apologetic (me thinks Mercedes man threatened to call in the expensive lawyers) but with the Mercedes man zooming off haughtily.
2) Suling, Amily and I witness a seriously rough and rude policeman dragging off a young, MEGA-PALE Chinese girl because of what we think is shoplifting. She stopps in front of us and tells the policeman she has the right to demand him to search her there and then instead of bringing her to some obscure place but the guy just practically shoves his arm in front of her face and goes all "HEY I'M A POLICEMAN SO YOU COME WHEREVER I SAY!!"......jeez man, ever heard of human rights??
3) I had an awful time trying to stand upright due to stomach cramps.

That's me with the two of the best darlings I've known (sings "1 way 2 say 3 words I Love Youuu!!") near the skating rink area . We wanted to seesee a matsalleh but he turned out to be not as good-looking as we thought him to be *eheheh* And we oh-so-wanted to buy a hamster together and take it in turns keeping the little fluffball but nope can't do *note the mini one under the wheel, we think he's napping, not squished lmao*

~Omg Yay Chapter~

2009-04-07T19:01:00.006+08:00

My internet is *gasp* back again after like, 4days of TOTAL inactivity!!1!!1!

I am so thankful for the people who tirelessly work to save helpless people like me who inadvertently end up frying the modem and the cable and the network card and whatever else it was that I fried by accident (twas a "naccident", mom, i swear!!). Still have no idea to this day where that rogue "freak" lightning came from and zapped all the connection stuff.

I love the fact that my-adorable-friend-who-loved-to-say-MamyPoko and my-other-tall-friend are getting along SO "well" together (all together now........AWWWW~)

Omfg Winner is still so friggingly blardy adorably charming-the-pants-off-all-of-us!!1!!11!

The darling boy's many moods and poses (dayyym he can give any male model a run for their money!!) :::
a) Me.....schleepyyyy~
b) Awww......you goin' so farst already??
c) Whazzatwhazzatwhazzat??!!
d) Go away, you hurt me eyes
e) I smell.......a.......FEMALE!!
f) Omidoodness it's FOOOOOD!!
g) What you say?

AAARRGGHHHHHH I WUV HIM AND I KNOW YOU DO TOOOO!!!!11!!!1!!!

~Nonsense Sensational Chapter~

2009-04-03T10:04:00.013+08:00

Three things happened in my seemingly stressful and somewhat boring life :::

#1 >>> The electricity supply in my housing area got cut off for 2hrs last night and I snapped some pictures out of sheer boredom

#2 >>> My poor modem got struck by a freak lightning that went astray (I swear it was aimed for my neighbour's house but I have no idea how it zapped mine instead) =[

#3 >>> I finally paid the registration fees for the Leadership Camp organized by my university after forgetting for 4days straight (thanks Jen, for becoming my personal reminder ^^).

My life would suck without you(ghurt) and a heap of spices. Wtf ((:

~Clear Winner Chapter~

2009-04-01T22:22:00.011+08:00

My neighbour is away on a holiday and so my family gets delegated with the enviable task of taking care of the pet doggie. Did I mention that the said doggie is a Golden Retriever mix Yellow Labrador who is overweight due to lack of exrcise? So you can probably imagine the strength of that love-starved dog. 'Specially when the cuddly darling wants to "play play". I doubt I'd last longer than 36seconds in a game of rough 'n' tumble with the big boy. Seriously. I don't mind really, am more than duper-pleased to help love and smooch that bigfatschmellylovablebundleofyellowfur.

He also happens to have perfected that "oh no you're going away so soon??don't leave meee!!" look to a tee. A clear winner ("Winner" happens to be his name too) in the adorable-ness category? Definitely, not maybe.

~I Wish Chapter~

2009-03-30T17:53:00.003+08:00

I wish for a lot of things......so much so i lose track of most of 'em and if I did keep a list of 'em, it might be enough to circle earth once over and prolly over and over and over (you get my point). Some of 'em are normal, some are extraordinary and some are just downright ridiculous.

I WISH.....

.....I could stop whining and just enjoy life.
.....I had more brains so I could get a scholarship.
.....I had a puppy. Or a dog. Whatever. As long as I have a pet. So I could call it "Schmoley".
.....I was friendlier and opener and approachabler and warmer (I know what I'm saying, do you?).
.....I was wiser to the spices of life that exist.
.....I had a heart that could either turn at will into steel or warm mush.
.....I had more friends that understood me; truly, really, deeply.
.....I could get a few tattoos and piercings without my parents promptly having identical heart attacks.
.....I knew the difference between "good" and "bad".
.....I had more open-minded parents.
.....I could go skydiving, bungee-jumping, white water rafting, etc for free *any rich takers??*.
.....I had more guts to stand up for what I believe in.
.....I could be a size 4 to see how it's really like.
.....I had eyes that were seagreen or skyblue or honeybrown or plumpurple (fickle, I know).
.....I'd been much MUCH quicker and gotten to him first.
.....I knew how to cook up a bloody storm in the kitchen.
.....I had a horse or two. Or three. Or all. All would be better, thanks.
.....I had a gorgeous little house in the countryside by a little stream surrounded by lush greenery.
.....I could fly. Really soar with the eagles in the wind.
.....I could run. Really run with the wild mustangs in the prairie.
.....I could swim. Really swim with the dolphins in the deep blue ocean.
.....I could travel the whole world over and meet new people.
.....I could go live with Jos, Esh, Ary-dearest.
.....I could say what I've always wanted to say.
.....I knew how to say world peace in the beginning.
.....I didn't open my big fat mouth so often and get my butt in trouble.
.....I'd shaddup already. Pffft.

~Reality Stings Chapter~

2009-03-24T16:30:00.020+08:00

Hush, do you hear it?

That clear sound echoing?
Tolling out its despair.
Hark, there it goes again.

What could it be?

It sounds vaguely familiar.

Oh, I remember it now.
It's the sound of a heart breaking.
Shattering into millions of tiny shards.
And those shards scattered by a stinging wind.
Whose heart may it be?
Mine......
As I hear the news I've been dreading.
All that's left is an empty hole.
Where he once used to be.
Won't someone wake me from this nightmare?
I don't want to dream about all the things that never were.
But I'll move on again, keep my head high.
I owe myself that much.

P/S ::: 나는 항상 당신을 사랑할 것이다, Zen.

~Yay Today Chapter~

2009-03-23T17:24:00.005+08:00

I finally get to meet my new friend today :))

Well he ain't exactly new to me 'cause I've known him since Friday, 20th March :))

Anyways, he seems pretty much like his friendly sms-persona :))

Am glad I have another new friend [God knows I need more of 'em!] :))

Managed to spend all of 2minutes saying "hinicetomeetyouigottagonowkaybye" :))

I need a new time management personal assistant :))

Felt so self-conscious of my stupid new haircut, I swear people were staring :))

Jen was once again looking out for her "cutie-in-a-cappie" :))

P/S ::: I hate fevers, thanks to it I don't get to go to campus early, who likes fevers anyway?? :((

~What Happens Chapter~

2009-03-22T16:13:00.005+08:00

As it so helpfully says, my blog post today is all about what really transpires behind the closed door of my bedroom when I park my butt and try to attack my growing mountain of assignments (this blog post only appearing thanks to the fact that I'm practically crying with frustration over my writer's block) :::

2.24pm
Decide to finish up marketing assignment that I've been staring at for the past two weeks.

3.01pm
Run downstairs to raid the fridge for some sweet treats to keep me awake.

3.10pm
Reply a few "pressingly urgent" smses......continue grumpily with the assignment.

3.52pm
Switch my attention to my opposite neighbour who's waving madly at me for some reason or the other.

3.55pm
After establishing the reason for the waving (neighbour wants me to go for a jog later on), I plough on.

4.15pm
Identify the subtle hints of coffee and cheese omelette smells coming from downstairs, so I run out for a quick tea break.

4.46pm
Abandon marketing and decide to try my luck on management, hoping inspiration comes more easily.

5.03pm
Happy that I've written a few sentences.....decide to continue resolutely despite the fact that my IM buddies are beeping me non-stop.

5.20pm
Give in to the IM beepings and realise that a bit of gossiping would do my almost-fried brain cells some good.

6.36pm
Go for that much needed jog with neighbour including small furball that is his dog in tow (poor us, we ended up walking instead, no thanks to puffball who couldn't keep up).

7.12pm
Come back all sweaty and icky therefore, a good cold bath awaits me.

7.39pm
Mom yells for the "umpteenth time" (as she puts it la) to come downstairs for dinner.

8.00pm
Decide to chillax first (who CAN do any work immediately after a good meal??) and watch the news in order to stay updated on what's going on.

9.06pm
Stretch and finally make way back up to room.

9.20pm
After effectively staring at my management textbook for the whole time, I give up and turn to my business communication assignment instead.

10.00pm
Only the points of what MIGHT be written in the assignment is done......how pathetically feeble.

10.11pm
Drowsiness taking over......stick a few icecubes down my shirt for good measure.

10.45pm
Give up, scream a goodnight to my opposite neighbour that effectively wakes up the neighbourhood, turn out room lights (leaving the toilet ones on, who knows what might be under my bed *shudder*) and its dreamland for yours truly :))

~Oh Shyte Chapter~

2009-03-21T15:28:00.008+08:00

First thought :::

Oh mannnn.....

First words :::
This ain't gonna be good

First scream :::
OMFGMYHAIRRR !!11!!!!1!!

I go for a haircut hoping for something presentable and end up coming home with a godawful look that makes me look like one of those "lala" people I so detest. 'Nuff said afore I end up with a helluva lawsuit on my bum. Shyte. Early warning to my friends here, if you love me and value the last dregs of your life,

DON'T ASK WHY

I'm seriously considering hair extensions. Or maybe even a wig. Heck, I'll just stick with a cap and hope to high heavens that my hair grows out double-duper-quick.

~My Uni Life Chapter~

2009-03-11T13:20:00.006+08:00

I totally agree 135% (and more probably) with the recent blog posts of the person-who-sat-next-to-me-in-the-TBS-web-but-went-off-to-finish-up-her-tutorial-work. What about? Mainly:

a) The life of a university student can be highly stressful.

b) Scratch that. The life of a uni student is fcking confusing.

c) My assignments are about to drive me up the nearest wall.

d) I have no idea where to begin attacking my work.

e) There's wayyyy too much to worry about in the 1st week already.

f) Right now, I really wish I was still in my SAM course.

g) Me, myself and I seem to be in need of a proper workout.

h) I need another mugful of the strongest espresso.

The last one was all my own. Honestly, at the rate my brain seems to going, I'm predicting I'll be asleep within 5minutes of my next tutorial class which happens to be a subject that I actually take some interest in. In which case, I dread to know what will happen to me in other subjects that bore me to tears.

*A hint here ::: My MPTE class seems to fall neatly under that category*

One thing that shocked many ('cept for those super smart ones that looked highly delighted and started drooling) was the fact that I'll be having a "quiz" (read ::: test) next week. First thoughts ::: "Huh? So fast??" I kid you not. That was how high my blur level was that fateful day the news was delivered. I'm beginning to dislike how uni life is turning out. Wish me luck that I might survive.

~To Be Free Chapter~

2009-02-28T15:06:00.008+08:00

WILD HORSES
I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out, hmmm
Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
There's greener pastures I'm thinking about
Mmm, wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared

Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare-back, carefree
Along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head-first, head-long
Without a thought
To act and damn the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear, but not feel scared

Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

I wanna run too

Recklessly abandoning me myself before you
I wanna open up my heart, tell him how I feel

Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like I'm longing too
I wanna run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses!
I wanna run with the wild horses

Song's by Natasha Bedingfield and omfg she's amazing in the sense that she's managed to put exactly how I've been feeling these past few weeks into just a song *cue shocked look* If only, if somehow, I managed to find that hidden strength, the courage to break free and tell him, straight to the face, how much I love him. No holds barred, no more hiding behind a smiling mask, no more insecurities. This might just happen when the moon turns green and the cow's able to jump over it without any help whatsoever like man-made wings and overdoses of enhancing drugs. Pffft.

I know just how weak I really am on the inside, all talk and no action. So I shall just wait (again, yes, shutup already) to see how it's going to end and in the meantime, pay as much attention as is possible into my next week's mind-numbing lectures. I mean, if 3hrs straight of one subject alone don't kill you, then the sitting still most certainly will wipe out most of your remaining brain cells. No kidding. So toodles for now while I go pound my brain cells into a hardier form for Monday where my classes begin at 8am and end at 7pm. Shyte.

~I'm Back Chapter~

2009-02-26T17:38:00.007+08:00

As the title so helpfully says, I'm back to this blogging business again although at the moment I'm feeling horribly lethargic and the lazy bones in my brain are complaining against the sudden overuse. I've hopped into the studies arena as well, this time into university, and it's a brand new phase in my life which I can't afford to screw up in any way. I have to be brutally honest here, I ain't very much happy at all to be dragged out of my comfort zone and away from my online family. To Jos, Esh and my darling little Ary, if you read this, know that I love all three of you so much and am missing you guys pretty badly now :((

Since I've forgotten how to get into the groove of blogging, these are some random thoughts running through my mind right now to fill the empty space:

[**] I badly need a drink of sky juice
[**] I'm worried about how I'll survive in uni
[**] I need to stop scarfing down enough chocolate bars to feed three colonies of ants
[**] I have to quit biting my nails whenever I feel nervous
[**] I miss Jos, Esh, Ary, Tazz and Hole so much
[**] I'm hankering for some good ol' fattening cheezy tacos
[**] I want to go to Colorado.....now
[**] I really have to stop singing in the shower, the neighbours complain too much
[**] I love him so so so so so so so so.....right that's annoying.....much but he doesn't know
[**] I'm still trying to lose my mind as quietly as possible
[**] I need a new family.....any takers? (lmao it's a joke)
[**] I miss the "Supernatural" series they used to air on TV
[**] I miss drooling all over my pillow at the sight of Jensen Ackles
[**] I want to be able to travel overseas again
[**] I want a new shadowdancer for my werefox
[**] I want a new guitar, no sharing *bleh*
[**] I want him, period

~Omfg Chapter~

2009-01-23T12:20:00.003+08:00

I am all at once amused, highly embarrassed and annoyed with ~~Google~~ me my blog. I post something about a certain someone from a far-away distant land and then forget all about it since we're supposed to move on right? And like, forget about whatever happened, no memories kept, etc wtv? But nooo, my past catches up with me in the form of that person asking me about my previous post which I had left to rot ;)) Ahh well, I get recognition after all, 'cept this came in the weirdest form possible and I am still in a mild state of shock :::

Roflmaomg, signing off~

P.S ::: This is my own way of apologising here (even though you say you don't mind). xoxo

~To Kor Chapter~

2009-01-08T15:21:00.007+08:00

To Kor,

I'm gonna use superlatives all the way here so it'll sound like I've finally lost my marbles, eh? Bet you'll be hapy when that really does happen haha. You deserve all these superlatives anyway, down to the full-stop ;))

Have I ever told you that you're the bestest, greatest, wonderfullest, craziest, amazingest, funniest, friendliest, delightfullest, nicest, wackiest, super-est, weirdest, kindest, generous-est, happiest, merriest, wittiest, sporting-est, gentlest, caring-est, unselfish-est, marvellous-est, awesomest, finest, zanyest, liveliest, willing-to-share-everything-possible-est, most incredible person everrrr? Ever ever afterrrrr? No?? Well then, here you go, this is what I really think of you, right from the bottom of my heart :))

Thanks loadsss for doing, well, everything that you've done for me (fine, I know I'm to lazy to type it all down but you know what you did anyway) and also for giving me every bit of attention whenever I start demanding for it. Heh heh.

Don't you ever change! Not even the slightest bit or I'll lose the person I know!

P.S ::: Well, you might want to lose the long-ish hair though, the shorter version is waaaayyy better, trust me.

P.P.S ::: And if I'm a monkeh then you must consent to being called a donkeh by meee!! Mwahahahahahaha!!

P.P.P.S ::: Oh and, that little picture above is how I see you taking care of me :))

xoxo, "love you too " ♡♡♡♡

~YipDeeDoo Chapter~

2009-01-02T22:20:00.009+08:00

Thanks awful loads to Mellissa, Elicia and Joshua for agreeing to spend some time-out at Mid Valley today *hugsss* I have to say though, Josh, you really reallyyyy need help in being less timid, and more talkative with the rest of us. Lolzers to our little outing today, at least you smiled all the way, Josh~ :)) Anyways, we had a fun time catching up with all our own little stories and then we wanted to watch "Bedtime Stories" (so sorry guys for making it hard to decide whether we should watch it or not) but it turned out we had to sit separately so nahh~ we go for the "Beverly Hills Chihuahua" instead. Turns out to be an a-okay movie by our standards didn't it, my friends? ;)) I missed you people already *sob* We need another reunion as soon as possible aite?? Haha, here are our pix together as promised, plus one extra that includes a dear friend of mine.

~Ipoh Getaway Chapter~

2008-12-30T23:48:00.008+08:00

My mind and spirit finally got the rest and relaxation it deserved after being cooped up in the city for sooo long. All we did over at my uncle's house was, well, exactly like how it should be ::: rest and relax. Oh and throw in abit of shopping and visits to a few temples and there we go, personal chillax time-out. I shall let the pictures do most of the talking for me. Love you too, Lucky ;))

~Wait For You Chapter~

2008-12-25T18:45:00.013+08:00

Merriest Christmas greetings and blessings of joy to my readers and darlings!! I've never really done this chain-questionnaire thingy but thanks to me being bored stiff (on Christmas Day of all things wtf) and a "maddie" who's sitting right next to me and poking my ribs to death (you know who you are, quit pointing to others already *pfffft*), I'll take a shot at this :::

I. Put your iTunes/any other players on shuffle.
II. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
III. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
IV. Tag 11 friends who might enjoy doing this.

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Everything - Michael Buble
Aww....the "everything's just perfect, sweetie~" moment =Þ

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
With You - Chris Brown
I'm best at being me when I'm with you? Lol

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Bring Me To Life - Evanescence
Someone who's able to put the "live" in my life, definitely

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Where Is The Love - BEP & JT
Haha yeaa~ not feeling any at all today

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Letting Go - Dawson's Creek
"A wise person is able to let go. To let go is actually to receive; to receive boundless happiness" ::: Buddha

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
More To Life - Stacie Oricco
Nice one....totally agree

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Hands - Jewel
Wtf, am i really just all hands to you people??

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Lucky - Jason Mraz
In a way, I guess so....they're lucky to have MEEE!!

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne
Mmhmmm.....with the one who matters most to me *sighs*

10. WHAT IS 2+2?
I Close My Eyes - DJ Liquid
Yes, in annoyance, since this question's majorrr irrelevant

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Patience - Take That
Thanks for being so patient with me :))

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Like Toy Soldiers - Eminem
Seriously adorable and yet, very hardy <3

13. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Hero - Enrique Iglesias
Cool, imma hero(ine) in their eyes~

14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
You Raise Me Up - Westlife
Sweet ::: You raise me up, to more than I can be~

15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Remember the Name - Fort Minor
Hahahahahahahaha wth!!

16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Diary of Jane - Breaking Benjamn
Ruyte...reading other people's diaries x)

17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Baby Boy - Beyonce Knowles
Did I mention I was pregnant with a 'baby boy'? Wthell *faints*

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Invisible - Taylor Swift
Oops, not good, hang on....
Heaven - DJ Sammy
Much, much better *hugs*

19. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
What I've Done _ Linkin Park
Umm....no further comments

20. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Stranger - Hilary Duff
Daym (==) That's very comforting, thanks

21. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Everywhere - Michelle Branch
Muahahahahaha!

22. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
The Way to Your Love - Hearsay
Maybe I'd be more direct another time round and just yell "I LOVE YOU!!" so I'd save myself the time and the pain

23. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Who Knew - Pink
Rather, who knows what's actually hurting me right now? =O

24. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Wait For You - Elliott Yamin
Me lykkk =]

I'm tagging whoever reads this~

~A Dedication Chapter~

2008-12-21T18:04:00.012+08:00

This is a post that's especially dedicated to the two new people on my 'List of People I Actually Want to Care About' :::

Lim Sin Yee & Low Jo Ann!!

Yup, the two of you have helped make driving classes much more fun and bearable or what would otherwise have been seriously friggingly dead-boring crap. No joke. Muchos gracias to both of your zanyness and willingness to laugh at whatever I say. Arigato gozaimas too, for putting up with my bad temper that occurs most of time (all thanks to the heat & impatience). And finally, loads of thanks to the two of you for being there as friends at the very moment when I needed good friends the most :))

By the way, today's happenings at the driving school were nothing short of a good hoot. First off, I got "the look" from JA today just because I was wearing my glasses instead of my contacts when I boarded the van and sat next to her with a friendly "hi". Why? She couldn't recognise me at all and thought I was some weird psycho for disturbing her peace. Meh. Then when we met up with SY at the school, we went back to our usual routine of laughing at no particular thing. With us, everything that has a right to, will and shall be laughed at. New motto for us then, girls? (*^^*) JA, you just had to go to the toilet right before the class begin instead of before, because "I had no feelings to before". Wth, feelings ;)) So we did the best we could in staying awake during the whole 2 hours the droning continued.

Then downstairs for our break where SY's tummy was already grumbling for her lunch. Not finding anything in the canteen that did not look like it might give us diarrhoea for a week at least, we headed out into the open world that lay before the gates of the driving school. That's where I realised that JA and SY were very much unused to crossing roads properly. I found out accidentally in the middle of crossing the road with a jeep bearing down on us. SY screamed first, I think, and that set off JA till the two off them were scampering away to the divider, leaving me to stare in shock in the middle of the road (not true actually, I freaked when they both started running, so I scampered after them too. Heh). But the way they sounded, it was as though the jeep was only a millimetre away and not a mile as it was *faints*

After the break, we couldn't go back into that nice, coldly comforting room we were in, oh noooo. We had to stay out in the maddeningly sweltering heat for almost 3 hours just to listen to some random guy talk about the car's engines and oils for god-only-knows-what within the car. Then out of nowhere, he starts talking about 'love amongst us all' and how we are to share this "love". So when my mom asked what I'd learnt, my reply ::: "All about love". Pffft. In short, we three laughing musketeers ended up 'boy-watching'. SY got a "purpleygray" (sorry, couldn't find a proper purple&gray), JA got a "bloodred" and I got a "midnightblack". Then, we cracked ourselves up silly with laughing over what aspects of our colours were attractive and whether we should take sneak pictures of our colours. Only those who know me well will know what I'm talking about, seriously. Lolzers, cheers to us, girlfriends~!!

~Serious Wtf Chapter~

2008-12-20T22:06:00.010+08:00

My first ever lesson in 'undang-undang' courtesy of Metro Driving School went "a-okay" considering that I went to it alone and had nothing but my wits and over-the-top imagination for company. Wasn't expecting much, just the usual bladeebla stuff of how we're to be responsible, mature, trustworthy drivers on the road. Like I don't get enough of that crap from my parents, relatives, friends and everyone else who considers themselves safe. Wtf. Against all odds though, I surprised myself and managed to make a new friend who could only speak Mandarin and Cantonese, nada of English and just a smattering of Malay. Yay me *faints*

My 'undang test' went worse if that is even possible. Almost 100 people crammed into a tiny waiting room with a few small old wall fans for ventilation. The unbearable heat, the overwhelming stench of sweaty people and seriously annoyed people with fraying tempers. Thank god I had people to help keep my sanity (thanks Sin Yee & Jo Ann, you girls are absolute dears!); I doubt I'd last an hour tops, alone.

And then I need to let out some of the pent-up anger I have at some certain people who have seriously NO common sense or proper manners. Case in point, when SY, JA and I were talking and laughing softly to keep our minds off impending insanity and this old lady walks in (not mentioning the race, you can figure out which one) with her daughter. Sits herself in front of us and barely a minute later she's turning round to glare at us me. For no obvious reason wth (other than the different races, that is). So we try to keep the volume down as much as we can but almost 10 minutes of the glaring and suddenly that old menopausal hag closes her ears, turns right around and goes "Ish, sangat bisinglah! Tak boleh perlahankan ke??". All 3 of us were stunned into silence, just staring at one another. Like wtfckinghell, there were a load of others making noises at decibels higher than ours and oh, that was alright since they were of the same race as her *useless bag-of-bones*. When we'd recovered our wits enough, we got right back to where we were before we were so darn rudely interrupted. But noooo, that loony psycho kept on turning round to glare in my direction till I was so pissed I could've happily bashed her with my 'undang-undang' book. I gave up all polite pretenses the next time she turned around and gave her the most loathingly poisonous look I had. After that, she kept her head turned the right way round, good riddance!!

My bestest buddy had the same stupid treatment as well during his training at a company. Useless dude of a different race (go figure) called him out to clean all the worktops. Okay, whatever, he does it. What does the aforementioned dude do? Stand there to one side with arms crossed and wearing a smug smile, just watching him do it without bothering to help. Another guy of useless-dude's race comes in with a big box full of stuff, plops it down onto the worktop my friend's just cleaned worktops and ~~tells~~ orders him to keep it all. Friend gets real pissed too and asks "Then what are you doing??" but the guy just saunters off. And apparently all of this happens to his other college mates who go to other places for their training. All of this puts me into my whtdafuckingshitlaisyourproblem-uselessgoodfornothingthinkyoursofrigginggoodizzit mood. 'Nuff said.

~Undaunted Efforts Chapter~

2008-12-07T23:31:00.011+08:00

I. Can. No. Longer. Take. This. Physical. Torture (*==*) At long last, today is the last one where my family and I have to endure a few long, gruelling hours of stuffing ourselves to more than the normal bodily extent of "FULL". And the long rainy days and soft soothing breeze are doing nothing in helping me survive the falling-asleep-flat-on-my-face-after-the-heavy-meals syndrome. Very helpful, that thought.

This time around, I was surprised the meal wasn't that heavy on the tummy (and *crosses fingers and toes* probably wasn't too harsh on increasing the amount of fats already in my body *faints*). We all trooped off obediently to the Summer Palace Restaurant over at Marriott Hotel, fully prepped and geared up for the last war to battle the food down. Placed in a private dining room, surprise surprise, the dim sum we had wasn't so filling, partly cause the service was waaaay slower than a snail making it's way up a steep, slippery driveway. So since I enjoyed eating this time, not many pictures of food were taken. Many random ones were though~

P/S ::: The lamborghini I saw parked outside the hotel? Mega drool-worthy. I'm a full-blooded jealous monster now. Bleh.

~Happily Bloated Chapter~

2008-12-06T22:44:00.009+08:00

Since I highly suspect myself of not having enough of a social life, once again, thanks in large part to my dear mother, my family, relatives and I trooped off to another one of her famous "buffet lunches". This one was held over at Lemon Garden Cafe at Shangri-La where the decor is "simply sumptuous" [that one I borrowed from a British couple seated in the lobby =Þ]. I have to agree with them there, it was really befitting a 5-star hotel, very grandiose and all that~ The food itself was also what I like to term "DA BOMB!!". Food of *gasp* all kinds, fresh seafood, sushi, indian cuisine, western dishes, A CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN!! *squeals* We couldn't possibly try everything so we squished and squashed whatever we could into those itsy-bitsy things called stomachs. Didn't really take many pictures of the food since was too busy scarfing it all down. But there's one in particular that's my favourite, the one with all the sweet treats. Are you jealous already? =9

~Bless My Stomach Chapter~

2008-12-05T15:30:00.011+08:00

The title's enough to say what my tummy's trying to and my mouth's unable to. I have been stuffed to the brim with over-the-top, rich food for the past few days and at the rate my darling mother is going, it doesn't seem to ever be in danger of letting up. Not the way I see it, really. Nuh-uh not in a gazimatrillion light years. I was finally intuitive enough to bring along a camera (though even that was a last minute remembrance thingy) so that I could snap a few photos of the food and the place and the people and all that. Mom booked us all a table over at the Kites Restaurant in Holiday Inn, Subang Jaya. The rest, I shall let the pictures do the talking :::

Starters

Main Course

Desserts

Finishers (minus the flower duh)

Random

~No More Tears Chapter~

2008-11-27T17:42:00.015+08:00

Well, this is it. The dawn of one of my worst nightmares ::: the end of tomorrow where I'll have to say goodbye to the people I've known for the past 10 hours a day, 8 and 1/2 months. And him. Never to see him again, that's what's been killing me slowly since Monday. As the week draws nearer to its end, I find myself becoming increasingly withdrawn and unable to face him. This cannot be happening to me. This is another deja vu all over again. I know this is the part where the end starts, and yet, the full realization that I won't see him ever hasn't really hit me yet. Which might be good, seeing as how the full impact might be too much for me. I hate having to pretend. I hate the way things didn't turn out. I hate the fact that the phrase, "What hurts the most is having the one you love so close but knowing full well that you can't have him", hits home at the right spot. Wtf, I hate me for being weak. But no, I will keep on smiling even if it's only a pretense. For him.

PCD - I Hate This Part

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here